Life is good. Ive been able to mend a few relationships I had damaged in my addictions. Met some great people along the way and formed some amazing relationships! My job is going well… Finally got a weekend off. Hopefully starting today i will get some much needed time spent with my 3 daughters. Nails. Makeup. Baking cookies. Painting. So we are excited.
So for the rest of the drama. at our restraining order hearing he starting throwing a fit for stuff so we scheduled a walk thru so he could take what was his. He didn’t show. So we rescheduled. I had a couple of pretty bad PTSD moments at work this week… frozen in panic and my anxiety sky rocketed. But i got through it. And I maintained sobriety. I have reached out for trauma therapy. So we will see how that goes.
My Father in law passed away 2 days ago it it is killing me that I cant reach out to the family or pay my respects. I actually had a pretty good relationship with him. But I know i can’t open that door…
Good job on 72 days, you did this for you and this is impressive.
Clearly a mama who loves her babies, enjoy all those moments with them… they shape those memories.
Sorry about your father in law .
Breath mama, anxiety is a overwhelming feeling.
I have found that my boys and I share a love of the same music (all kinds) and this song was his way of telling me how he was feeling when he was self harming. To this day I am grateful for what he was sharing and when I hear it I realize that we can all slip away into a song and hear what isn’t being spoken. Now I hear play this song when I am anxious… it settles me into remembering and being grateful for my now.
Take care Kayla. Thank you for sharing. Just the courage to share here with people you trust - even though not directly with him - opens your heart to the world, to connection. Your father in law hears it.
Your ex. Let him throw his hissy fit. It’s emotional manipulation. I don’t want to spend more time on it than it merits. As the old expression goes: it’s not your circus, it’s not your monkeys (any more). You are free, and you are safe.
Wow baking! That sounds delish. What’s it gonna be? Cookies? Cake?
If there’s one thing I’m good at, it’s dealing with little girls, I helped raise one, and till this day she looks to me for advice when she can. She’s 15 now. F**k I’m old,
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