ive never really talked about anything i usually keep it to myself but i needed a escape so here i am typing this , never really thought I had a issue with alcohol but after last night I do have a alcohol issues. I’m losing relationships , I become something I am not whenever I drink. I hurt the people around me and myself I embarrass myself. Since I’ve been 18 I have abused alcohol and used it to escape. It isn’t fun anymore and I’m constantly hurting the people I love. I hate feeling empty and the anxiety killing me all day.
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Hello @Vxxickk welcome to the community! I am familiar with feeling anxiety when I was drinking all the time, mostly because of something stupid or awful I did. Possibly the best decision I ever had was to quit drinking. Take some time and look around this forum there is a lot of great insight here!
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As someone who has struggled with anxiety and panic disorder since I was 8, I will say that quitting drinking has helped me manage those things SOO much better than when I was self medicating with alcohol.
I know it’s not easy to get over that hurdle and I would suggest all the support you can get your paws into, but it’s so worth quitting for.
Stick around 
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Welcome. This is an awesome place with a good mix of beautiful humans. I know exactly how you are feeling. I was a bartender for a long time. Was hard to get out of that “culture”. I’m telling you, I’m 7 months sober and it’s the BEST decision. I feel so great. There will be trials and downfalls, but as long as you stay sober, the light keeps getting g brighter. I’m even getting back old relationships I thought I lost due to my idiocracy. Happy you’re here. For real
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Welcome. Realising it really is the first step of getting your life back. What will you do now to quit? I started by reading quit lit (books about sobriety and recovery) and posting on here. You can find plenty of ideas here.
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