Grateful you are safe. Hopefully everyone else is too.
Fires are so scary… grateful it was contained so quickly 
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Amazing you are. Thanks for sharing. So glad you got out and enjoyed yourself. I think prepping ahead of time for challenges is the greatest idea. I’m happy for you.
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Wow very good you are sober and can face this challenge accordingly. I was so drunk once someone told me there was a fire in my living room and I answered I know I lit the fire that morning. I didn’t know the log had jumped out of fireplace and I had a real fire in The living room. Thankfully that story ended just fine.
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Day 311.
Pretty tired, but not unbearably exhausted today. My biggest goal is to make sure to take my breaks and leave work on time. My boss is extremely supportive of me and is such a big cheerleader for my self care. “You are the most important person in your life, and you need to take care of that important person first.”
Going to make myself some breakfast and try some gentle yoga this morning. Since my surgery I’ve only been doing a little yoga at night, so I’m going to ease back into twice a day again.
Have a good sober day, fam.
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Day 315.
A year ago, I downloaded SoberTime because I wanted something to help keep me motivated/encouraged to stop smoking and getting high every day.
This app and more importantly, this community has changed my life. Through relapses, grief, trauma, treatment, work, medical issues, good times and bad… I’m so thankful for the folks here in my pocket.
Thank you, sober fam, for being with me for a year. I’m looking forward to day 365 free from weed 
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Oh wow - 1 year TS anniversary – way to go friend. So very happy that you are here with us! So great to see you doing so well in your journey and working through healing the trauma. So very excited to be celebrating your 1 year weed free with you soon. Keep up the amazing work Reese 
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Wow! Youve come such a long way friend! I wanted to pop onto ur thread and see how u were doing and it was such a lovely surprise to see how far uv come! Congratulations on ur 1 year of being on TS also!!! Its works if u work it! 
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Hey Reese
How are you doing?
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Day 318.
I’m doing okay, been a little stressed with work and preparing for the holidays. Still sober, so I have that going for me. My psychiatrist is adjusting some of my meds to help with my anxiety and depression, so I think that will be helpful.
Thank you for thinking of me, @JazzyS
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Much love friend. Glad to see your name pop up. Work stress and holidays stress can get amplified. Do remember to take care of yourself. Breathe and take things slow.
Hope the adjustment in meds helps and takes effect quickly 
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Day 320.
Doing okay. Work has been busy, as it usually is during the holidays (US Thanksgiving). Since I work with people with dementia, it takes a lot of planning and coordinating if families want to take them home or come visit for the holidays. It’s definitely better to be over-prepared than just winging it. I’m not working tomorrow since I put my time off request in December of last year, so it will be nice to just spend time with my family.
A part of my body always has an adverse reaction to Thanksgiving thanks to past trauma. Being forced to spend time with my bio family, holiday breaks so I didn’t get the escape of school, constantly shamed for whatever I did or didn’t eat, everyone putting on a happy face in front of guests and then fighting with each other to make me feel like I’m going crazy… Just not a fun or safe time at all. I’m still rewriting the narrative of the holidays, but also acknowledging that it will take me time for the good memories with my family to outnumber the bad memories with my bio family.
It’s also going to be our first holiday season without Grandma, so that’s definitely a bit of a bummer. It’s also my BIL’s first holiday without his parents, since his father passed around Christmas last year. It feels weird knowing that we’ll have those empty spots at the table…
Regardless, I am still clean and sober, and I have a family who loves me immeasurably. That is definitely something to be thankful for.
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Day 325.
Greetings, friends. I’m still chugging along. I had a good Thanksgiving with my family, and realized it was my first time not getting high. I was able to just exist and bask in the love and joy, so that was truly wonderful.
I have therapy today. Gonna try to get the house cleaned up before that. Not much else to say at this time.
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another wonderful milestone! I love this - way to go Reese. Glad you had such a lovely Thanksgiving celebration with family 
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Day 328.
I’ve been feeling really burnt out and stressed lately. One of my patients has been having increasingly difficult behaviors (serious verbal aggression, unable to be redirected, explosive episodes of anger). I know it’s the dementia and not actually her, but man it’s draining to deal with all day every day.
I’ve also been struggling with nightmares about my abusers the last couple of nights. It affects my quality of sleep and my emotional state. Just all around a bad time.
I took a mental health day off of work today. I just stayed home and slept all day. I’m about to get up, maybe do some chores, decorate the apartment a little. Try to do something to move my body, since I know it will help me feel better (even if I don’t want to).
Vibes of strength and healing would be appreciated for today. Taking things one hour at a time.
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Sending much love and strength with good vibes coming your way.I am sorry for the patient you are dealing with and the bad dreams. Hope the movement and self care help. Grateful you did take a day for yourself…sleep is a beautiful healer
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Day 332 (I think)
I’m doing alright, definitely been feeling the stress of work these past few days. I’m also on some new psych meds and this week I’ll be increasing the dose, so hopefully that will be beneficial. I’ve been having some cravings for weed and for getting high. I even read some stories about using nutmeg to get high/have hallucinations, and then was disappointed in myself for even entertaining the thought. But I am still clean and sober, so I have that going for me. I think if I really dig in, it’s not so much the desire to get high, but moreso the desire to escape. I’ve been neglecting myself and the things that I enjoy doing–yoga, tarot, meditation, painting, reading, etc. I’ve been going through the motions of life, but not really taking time for living, if that makes sense. I feel like i just don’t have enough hours in the day, but getting high won’t help that at all– it’ll only drain the hours even more.
Therapy later today, which will be good. I also decorated the apartment for the holidays. I have mixed feelings around this time of year, due to trauma and depression, but I’m hopeful that the pretty lights and such will lift my spirits. Worst case scenario, I take everything down.
Just taking things one step at a time. I’m depressed, so I’m going to try to do some Opposite Action. I don’t want to do yoga or post on here, but I know deep down it will help me, so here I am.
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I find myself in constant need of doing something good. Whether its feeding my artistic hobbies, or helping the neighbor.
If im not always moving forward in something positive. The negative creeps in quickly
Getting back into the positive actions silence it quickly too.
I sometimes wish i wasnt wired this way. Maybe its a recovery things. The constant need to move forward whether its career, hobbies, self care. Recovery or helping others.
If im not moving forward it feels like im moving backwards quickly
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Sorry that you are dealing with all the stress my friend. For sure it makes sense that the cravings occur as the need to escape. Our old coping mechanisms do still creep through at times and we have to remember that those never helped us in the past and will not bring us any comfort now.
I do hope that you can get back into your yoga, meditation and tarot routines. They really did help calm you.
We are right here with you friend. This is not an easy time for many and that is why it is imperative for us to connect with our support team. Much love friend. Great to see you posting 
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Wrapping up the day. Therapy was good and helpful. This time of year historically holds a lot of emotional turmoil for me, and my therapist pointed out that this slump happens pretty consistently every year, so this is expected and kind of normal for me. Not to say it isn’t painful, just to say that there are a lot of risk factors, so overall I’m doing pretty good. Feeling like I’m just going through the motions is better than not doing the motions at all. And this will pass.
Going to take a shower, yoga, tarot, journaling, and bed. Tomorrow I have work and I just have to keep my coping tools in my pocket. One day at a time.
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Day 333.
Doing okay today! Work was alright. Tomorrow we’re getting our alert system updated, which means it’ll be down for several hours, which means a LOT of extra work and stress… I’m trying not to future trip and worry about something that hasn’t even started yet.
Feeling pretty amazed at that triple 3 on my sober time. Even with everything else I’m going through, internally and externally, I have 333 days clean to show for it.
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