I love this update! Great to hear that you had a wonderful sober time 
1 Like
Day 309.
Was jolted awake by the fucking fire alarm going off in my building. Had to throw on clothes and now standing outside in the cold waiting for the fire department to let us back inside. I was in a deep sleep so I feel delirious right now lol. What a start to the day.
4 Likes
oh man that is a rough way to start the day. Sorry for the crazy jolt out of deep sleep. Hope your day gets better
Hopefully it was just an alarm and no fire damage 
2 Likes
Unfortunately there was an actual fire on my floor… thankfully it was small and my unit wasn’t affected, but it took quite a while before we could go back inside. It is what it is 
5 Likes
Grateful you are safe. Hopefully everyone else is too.
Fires are so scary… grateful it was contained so quickly 
2 Likes
Amazing you are. Thanks for sharing. So glad you got out and enjoyed yourself. I think prepping ahead of time for challenges is the greatest idea. I’m happy for you.
1 Like
Wow very good you are sober and can face this challenge accordingly. I was so drunk once someone told me there was a fire in my living room and I answered I know I lit the fire that morning. I didn’t know the log had jumped out of fireplace and I had a real fire in The living room. Thankfully that story ended just fine.
2 Likes
Day 311.
Pretty tired, but not unbearably exhausted today. My biggest goal is to make sure to take my breaks and leave work on time. My boss is extremely supportive of me and is such a big cheerleader for my self care. “You are the most important person in your life, and you need to take care of that important person first.”
Going to make myself some breakfast and try some gentle yoga this morning. Since my surgery I’ve only been doing a little yoga at night, so I’m going to ease back into twice a day again.
Have a good sober day, fam.
5 Likes
Day 315.
A year ago, I downloaded SoberTime because I wanted something to help keep me motivated/encouraged to stop smoking and getting high every day.
This app and more importantly, this community has changed my life. Through relapses, grief, trauma, treatment, work, medical issues, good times and bad… I’m so thankful for the folks here in my pocket.
Thank you, sober fam, for being with me for a year. I’m looking forward to day 365 free from weed 
8 Likes
Oh wow - 1 year TS anniversary – way to go friend. So very happy that you are here with us! So great to see you doing so well in your journey and working through healing the trauma. So very excited to be celebrating your 1 year weed free with you soon. Keep up the amazing work Reese
1 Like
Wow! Youve come such a long way friend! I wanted to pop onto ur thread and see how u were doing and it was such a lovely surprise to see how far uv come! Congratulations on ur 1 year of being on TS also!!! Its works if u work it! 
2 Likes
Hey Reese
How are you doing?
2 Likes
Day 318.
I’m doing okay, been a little stressed with work and preparing for the holidays. Still sober, so I have that going for me. My psychiatrist is adjusting some of my meds to help with my anxiety and depression, so I think that will be helpful.
Thank you for thinking of me, @JazzyS
4 Likes
Much love friend. Glad to see your name pop up. Work stress and holidays stress can get amplified. Do remember to take care of yourself. Breathe and take things slow.
Hope the adjustment in meds helps and takes effect quickly
2 Likes
Day 320.
Doing okay. Work has been busy, as it usually is during the holidays (US Thanksgiving). Since I work with people with dementia, it takes a lot of planning and coordinating if families want to take them home or come visit for the holidays. It’s definitely better to be over-prepared than just winging it. I’m not working tomorrow since I put my time off request in December of last year, so it will be nice to just spend time with my family.
A part of my body always has an adverse reaction to Thanksgiving thanks to past trauma. Being forced to spend time with my bio family, holiday breaks so I didn’t get the escape of school, constantly shamed for whatever I did or didn’t eat, everyone putting on a happy face in front of guests and then fighting with each other to make me feel like I’m going crazy… Just not a fun or safe time at all. I’m still rewriting the narrative of the holidays, but also acknowledging that it will take me time for the good memories with my family to outnumber the bad memories with my bio family.
It’s also going to be our first holiday season without Grandma, so that’s definitely a bit of a bummer. It’s also my BIL’s first holiday without his parents, since his father passed around Christmas last year. It feels weird knowing that we’ll have those empty spots at the table…
Regardless, I am still clean and sober, and I have a family who loves me immeasurably. That is definitely something to be thankful for.
3 Likes
Day 325.
Greetings, friends. I’m still chugging along. I had a good Thanksgiving with my family, and realized it was my first time not getting high. I was able to just exist and bask in the love and joy, so that was truly wonderful.
I have therapy today. Gonna try to get the house cleaned up before that. Not much else to say at this time.
2 Likes
another wonderful milestone! I love this - way to go Reese. Glad you had such a lovely Thanksgiving celebration with family 
2 Likes
Day 328.
I’ve been feeling really burnt out and stressed lately. One of my patients has been having increasingly difficult behaviors (serious verbal aggression, unable to be redirected, explosive episodes of anger). I know it’s the dementia and not actually her, but man it’s draining to deal with all day every day.
I’ve also been struggling with nightmares about my abusers the last couple of nights. It affects my quality of sleep and my emotional state. Just all around a bad time.
I took a mental health day off of work today. I just stayed home and slept all day. I’m about to get up, maybe do some chores, decorate the apartment a little. Try to do something to move my body, since I know it will help me feel better (even if I don’t want to).
Vibes of strength and healing would be appreciated for today. Taking things one hour at a time.
1 Like
Sending much love and strength with good vibes coming your way.I am sorry for the patient you are dealing with and the bad dreams. Hope the movement and self care help. Grateful you did take a day for yourself…sleep is a beautiful healer
1 Like
Day 332 (I think)
I’m doing alright, definitely been feeling the stress of work these past few days. I’m also on some new psych meds and this week I’ll be increasing the dose, so hopefully that will be beneficial. I’ve been having some cravings for weed and for getting high. I even read some stories about using nutmeg to get high/have hallucinations, and then was disappointed in myself for even entertaining the thought. But I am still clean and sober, so I have that going for me. I think if I really dig in, it’s not so much the desire to get high, but moreso the desire to escape. I’ve been neglecting myself and the things that I enjoy doing–yoga, tarot, meditation, painting, reading, etc. I’ve been going through the motions of life, but not really taking time for living, if that makes sense. I feel like i just don’t have enough hours in the day, but getting high won’t help that at all– it’ll only drain the hours even more.
Therapy later today, which will be good. I also decorated the apartment for the holidays. I have mixed feelings around this time of year, due to trauma and depression, but I’m hopeful that the pretty lights and such will lift my spirits. Worst case scenario, I take everything down.
Just taking things one step at a time. I’m depressed, so I’m going to try to do some Opposite Action. I don’t want to do yoga or post on here, but I know deep down it will help me, so here I am.
2 Likes