Awe I’m so very sorry for your loss. I am so grateful that you did not let shame keep you away. So grateful that you are working on getting back on your sober journey.
You are right - we can’t do this alone. We are here for you friend. We got your back. Hope you are able to rest and hydrate (so you can detox from the chemicals) and start feeling better again soon …
Here is to a day 1 
Made it through the day sober. Very tired, took a long walk and appreciated the clear night sky. Made a big pot of tea, took a nice shower and washed my hair. Now I’m winding down with a movie before bed.
Tomorrow is a new day. I can and I will do this.
You can do it Reese. I was also a rat mom and losing every one of them brought its own heartache so I totally understand.
Every day is a day 1 and you made it. 
You totally can. I hope you got a good night’s rest and are well into enjoying your Sunday 
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We got your back…let’s do this one moment at a time 
Day 2. Spoke to my older (bio) brother on the phone (former addict who has been sober for quite some time now). He went to see our extended bio family for a funeral and was kind of shocked at how much everyone was drinking/using, and how normalized it seemed to be. Makes me feel kind of relieved to not be in that family and environment anymore. Also puts my own battles with addiction and sobriety into some context.
Plan for today: I’m tired, so I’m taking it easy. Do some laundry and dishwashing, work on my painting, reading, listening to some science podcasts I have cued up. Finally got a calendar for the new year, so I’ll be filling out some birthdays and anniversaries today. Yoga, tarot reading, meditation, sleep. Going to put my head on the pillow sober.
Day 3. Started the day with some yoga and chores, attended an MA meeting, didn’t talk and just listened to everyone else. Plan for today is chores, taking a walk, working on my painting, maybe picking up some groceries if I have the energy. Work tomorrow, so I’m going to try to go to bed early in the attempt to get some decent-ish sleep. Maybe take a nice bath before bed.
I am going to put my head on the pillow sober tonight.
Sounds like a good evening to me
you are doing great – just keep stacking up the days one day at a time
🩵🩵 you’re back and trying again. I’d count that as a win.
Made it through today, and it was a good one. I’m fully aware that the withdrawals and cravings are really gonna start kicking my ass over the next couple of days, but I have tools that I can use. I think that having my art and painting supplies out helps, because it gives me something to do and focus on to pass the time.
Going to bed sober. Going to wake up sober. I’m going to make it another 24 hours sober.
Day 4. Slept like garbage, but I didn’t wake up with a hangover. I’m needing to find different tools to deal with my disordered sleep so that I’m not just getting stoned to fall and stay asleep.
But I was able to wake up, do some yoga, and make a delicious breakfast for myself. Plan for today is work, cooking, painting, reading, hair wash day, yoga, Tarot, sleep. Another 24 hours weed free.
Some tips for better sleep. More movement during the day, magnesium, no screens an hour or so before sleep and unplug the wifi.
Great work on 4 days! Sorry about the crappy sleep… it does regulate as you add up sober days.
Dana has some great tips… a few other tips -
Sounds like a good day planned… hope you have a great day and get some restful sleep soon.
Survived the day. I have a patient actively dying so I’m very emotionally drained. Made sure my route home didn’t pass any pot shops. Home now, not much energy for anything. Going to do some quick yoga, a Tarot reading, and sleep. Putting my head on the pillow sober. Tomorrow is a new day.
I’m so sorry to hear about your patient. That has gotta be an emotional experience. Glad you had the foresight to plan a different path home.
Wishing you a restful sleep. Another day won my friend… keep pushing forward 
Day 5. Started the day with needing to call my bank to fix a mistake on their end, so that was annoying, but should be resolved in 24-48 hours.
Tired, but I have coffee and did some energy boosting yoga. Plan for today is a quick cool shower to alert myself some more, work, trying to catch up on some reading, clean up around the house, yoga, Tarot, sleep. Gonna get through the day, and get through it sober.
Made it through the day. Surprisingly very few cravings for weed specifically, more an overall feeling of sadness and wanting to be numb. But I have completed another day.
Took a shower and made some good food for dinner. Going to watch some tv, yoga, Tarot, sleep. Tomorrow is a new day.
Feeling pretty decent, although I am physically and emotionally and mentally exhausted. My patient passed away and today I worked in the dementia unit, which is always challenging.
Cravings are hitting me pretty hard. Wanting nothing more than to unwind with some weed, but my past relapses have taught me that it isnt worth it and that I just end up feeling worse. Plan is that once I get home, I unwind with a nice epsom salt bath, read a little, yoga, Tarot, sleep. Tomorrow is a new day.
So very sorry friend. Sounds like a very emotional and taxing day. Your plan for the evening sounds perfect. Self care and relaxing will help you unwind.
Great work on your 5 days
So very true…glad you are remembering this. We can get through the rough patches.
Wishing you a wonderful day/ evening
If I can get through the day, I will have 7 days clean! I can and I will do this.
Day 7. Weird dreams. Doing a lot of internal work with meditation and journaling. Going to call up my mom in a little bit and talk to her. Plan for today is yoga, work, hair wash day, take care of some finances and chores. I will get through the day sober.
