How is your day going ?
Welcome back! At one time, many years ago, i too relapsed after a decent amount of time in recovery ( I had 3 years at that time). I found that the reason for my relapse was that i was getting complacent and not doing the work required to stay clean and sober. I began to slack on prayer, on my self care techniques, and on many things that i did for my recovery… mtgs being one of them. Life got busy and I began to “forget” to take care of my recovery. But in all reality, if we dont have recovery, we have nothing. So recovery must come first. And that relapse showed me that.
I think its great that u came here and reached out for help. Maybe getting back to the basics of what worked for u to get sober in the first place, is a good start 
You havent lost all the knowledge that youve gained over those 4 years and so its important to take a look at what happened that caused ur relapse, and make the appropriate changes. Wishing u all the best on ur journey
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A side observation: In 40 yrs of sobriety, I’ve yet to met anyone who was either in treatment or in the rooms who relapsed and had a good time.
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This is my first day today. I am sorry for what ive did. A waste of a lot money and resources.
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Well today is the beginning of the rest of your life, and you move forward from today onwards.
Rebuilding yourself and life day by day.
You know you can do it, you have before.
Believe in yourself, your life is worth fighting for.
You have to concentrate on some positives, break the cycle this will bring you out of that dark place. And connect here with us, your not alone 
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I watched this tonight. It’s about 10 minutes long and really insightful.
It is for alcohol and any addictions. It really helped see why a relapse can be avoided with more knowledge we become stronger.
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I’m glad you’ve come here for support !
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Sir, i am worried, and getting paranoid that my co-workers noticed the change in me in the past month. My brain thinks that they knew the nasty thing that i am doing, the mannerism, etc. How will i cope up with this situations? Any advise sir to start with.
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If your not doing it anymore you have nothing to worry about. If they thought they noticed something they won’t anymore. That’s all you can do.
Keep moving forward, don’t let worrying thoughts of what’s already happened keep you down.
You have got back up and you have alot to look forward to now.
You have the strength and the tools to do this, just like me, we just have to add more tools and be stronger on what we put into our sobriety.
Try and relax a little, stop thinking about what others will think, or may not even be thinking what’s done is done. Their opinion doesn’t matter as much you getting back in track okay
Concentrate on how you can start feeling good again and how your going to move forward.
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Thank you sir…
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Thank you. I am ashamed of my substance abuse. I did not share it to anyone, nor to my closest friends. I am afraid they will judge me.
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You don’t have to call me sir 
- Because we’re all in this together all equal and 2. I’m female
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Sorry mam. 
here in the philippines, we always address as mam or sir. 
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Maybe AA or NA will help you have extra face to face support if you can’t open with those close to you.
Remember you are worth it!
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That’s ok 
I understand
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There is a world of companionship and help for you here at this site. People who will not judge you and who will help you. I’m sorry that you lost your sobriety but as you see this happens. One day at a time for your recovery.
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It doesn’t matter what you started using after being sober for four years, but looking back in your posts it looks like it’s meth.
As you can, I would try to cut your ties with whoever you’re getting it from? Hopefully, it’s not as easy to get as alcohol would be.
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As much as you can go back to your beginning, and what you did to get off of it then and use those same tools to get off of it now and stay off of it one day at a time
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Yes, its meth. I lost a part of my savings on it. Yes, i will cut my ties to my friends who are using it
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Lots of people find the accountability of checking in daily on the checking in daily to maintain focus thread is a good way to just that stay accountable. But you do you and do as you please. Again, there’s lots of support here. There’s tons of people that are off of meth. You are not alone.
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