Hey guys, I relapsed a day ago after 4 months.
Ive managed 3 years before as my longest stretch.
I thought id ring everyone during my relapse and slag my husband off something chronic saying things I didnt mean. Just being pure nasty for no reason other than certain things were getting to me. I feel so bad for him and the things I said. I downloaded this app before on my 3 year stretch and it worked.. I’ve had years out from this app though. Guys im just feeling bad.. im feeling so so bad.
Welcome back.
My last drunk was similar.
The good news is that with the help of support here and making all the necessary changes in my life. I haven’t drank since.
Glad your here!
Thank you so much for reaching out.
I’m so sorry you went through that, Im trying to put things in place to make sure this doesnt happen again. Oh its so crap!
But thank you so much for the welcome hun.
Appreciate it x
Sending love
Thank you hun x
Everything will be just fine. 
We are all human, we make mistakes, we fall, we stand up again, we move on, we change.
Will it matter in a year what you said or did? If not, apologize and become the best version of yourself and look into the future!
Its a big chance to start again 
lots of postive energy for you
That shame and guilt can be a good motivator. I had to keep remembering all the horrendous crap I did to others and myself to keep me from staying stuck on the treadmill of drinking and using. It definitely sucks feeling that way. But as you know with your previous 3 years of sobriety, you don’t have to stay stuck in those patterns and you don’t have to ever wake up to that kind of guilt and regret again. That is definitely a true gift of sobriety.
So glad you came back, I hope you stick around and lean into the support available here. This place continues to help a lot of people. 
Welcome back!!! Everyone of us got reinforcement by your unfortunate mishap. It can happen to anyone of us !! Make amends to those you have hurt and identify where your program of recovery needs to be stronger. Don’t ever leave us again 
ODAAT
Thank you so so much..your words matter
Sending so much love x
This is so true.. the shame and guilt is horrendous.
I choose to be better, thank you so much 
x
Thank you so much for your kind words.
All means so much thank you.. day 1 guys.. and I promise to never leave again.
Sorry that you relapsed i havnt yet but i know guys who did and they shared how it felt wish you well back on the horse
By the grace of God or your Higher Power, you will look back at these posts with fond memories years from now.
Welcome back to TS and sobriety 
You know how it works: Dust off, put in the recovery work, stack your toolbox, never crave alone, get help, be accountable, build a life you don’t want to escape, work on your underlying issues.
Keep us posted here! Join where you feel comfortable. ODAAT
Welcome to talking sober, @Mountainmoon and cool username
I’m so sorry that your relapse is having such painful consequences on you and the people around you. I know exactly how it feels to act horrible during a night drinking and to wake up to awful shame the following day. You know how to be sober, love. Back on the horse, stay with us now. These feelings will fade with time and sobriety. Make your apologies and stick around.
I have felt that way before…
As you say, it’s an horrendous feeling.
Thank you for sharing. I can imagine, relapsing after that kind of streak must be excruciating in certain ways.
I’m so encouraged, though, to hear that your feelings did not crush your willingness to continue trying.
You’re an encouragement to me, for sure.
Hey, thank you so much for your words.
Damn its so painful right? Made my apologies etc but im still feeling shame today. Another hard thing is having to carry on with the outside world (I have a wedding to photograph tomorrow) I have zero energy to be dealing with it. But I will deal with it.
Im back on the horse… and I will stay with you guys.
Thank you so much again.. means alot x
Wow thank you so much..
Its pain. Shame..guilt and the spiral that it makes.. I am taking positive steps externally and have reached for help from my doctor along with being honest with people.
Big sigh! Here again… painful black hole i need to pull myself out of…. I wish self love came easy.
I just hope I can be forgiven.. I hope I can forgive myself.
Thank you so much x
It’s okay to feel bad and ashamed, but you need to reflect on you. I too recently relapsed and its a horrible feeling. Especially when it affects those you love.. you have a community here online and I have heard AA is good too they normally do in person or zoom meeting depending on the area.. try not to be too hard on yourself. You’ve out in A LOT of work, from this point one find a small thing or 2that make you smile through the day. Sorry if that sounds corny I had therapy today lol
It’s Friday… how are you feeling? Hopefully the weekend is good to you. 
ODAAT