Welcome to Talking Sober, I’m glad you are here. I hear you saying you want to stop drinking. You have expressed a willingness to try a different approach and a different way of life. A little reluctant, maybe, for AA. And you know what your trigger time is.
Finding a safe place to be at midnight is a real challenge. This place is open 24 hours, and our European and Australian members are active in our early morning hours.
If you are finished with drinking and you are willing to try anything, the good news is that it’s exactly the place so many have started from and found long-term recovery. For me, I started with getting arrested for DUI and having to provide daily breath tests to stay out of jail, and Antabuse and AA and individual counseling and an intensive outpatient program. Today, Talking Sober and AA are at the core of my sobriety. Here is a fantastic thread full of ideas that folks have used to get and stay sober.
Blessings on your house 
as you begin your journey.