absolutely not. if you actually engage w yourself, analyse, gradually unearth, face and eventually understand the reasons why you drink, what it is you are running from emotionally, then you overcome these underlying conflicts and you won’t need it anymore. that is how
the choice you have to make is not be sober or have relationships - it is be sober and acutally work on your shit or be drunk and live in the illusion. gym and work/a regular life are nice, and healthy habits - but they won’t keep you sober. they don’t change you deep inside. do the work. if we can do it, you can do it.
yes. and it is great you have that insisght now. now you can get this show on the road. 
Resources for our recovery
pick a few, go through them, learn, really fucking engage and build connection w yourself as well as open yourself up to other ppls recovery stories.
if you can, therapy. if you can’t: AA.
come here every day. I do. it does me good. always did.
don’t go to that party if you cant be sober. it’s not forever. dude. many many ppl in actual long term recovery have no issue being around their DOC after a while. because we worked on the apparent need. alcohol has lost the function we needed it for, because we worked on our underdlying stuff.
best of luck!
ah yes and read this one Your #1 tip for sobriety (over 2 years sober)