Reset Again 😢

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Why is it so much harder this time! When I first did it I was so full of energy and positivity but I just can’t find it again. I just feel so ashamed and lonely and exhausted. I really want to do this so I am back ready to go again :blush:

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It never gets easier to get back. It always gets harder. I have been up and down on the sobriety
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The good news is, if you make it happen this time, you don’t have to have “harder” anymore. Things may still be hard but in such a different way.

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Maybe try a meeting might help wish you well

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Thanks for reaching out I’m not feeling great at all today on the verge of being sick at work all day just glad I wasn’t. I just want this day over :frowning: I appreciate the message

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Thanks for reaching out and sharing I really appreciate it. I don’t know how going to get through the week at the moment it is draining I just want to sleep but I have so much to do! Well done to you for joining I found it really useful first time round just felt so much easier for some reason x

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What were you doing to enhance your sobeiety?

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The first time around do you mean? I was making sure I left jobs to the last minute evening time which needed to be done I wasn’t even going the shops I left my son to go so I couldn’t buy any I was regularly doing my exercise dvd and going to the gym. Then it seems like one thing happens n then another all in quick succession and I end up so overwhelmed and then end up drinking I need a way over rationalising and organising my thoughts I’ve always had a very busy life and that won’t change any time soon. Thanks for reaching out. I feel better than yesterday but still not great struggling to get out of bed at the moment !

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Don’t give up. It is always one step at a time. It is doable, but there is a change you need to make.

It sounds like you got sober for a while but didn’t recover. Staying in recovery is about digging into some of the things that actually enable your drinking / using. Changing activities and staying home works for the short term, but it doesn’t keep you in recovery.

Have you tried joining a sober program? It’s a space where you learn the deeper growth that helps you stay in recovery. They have online ones that are available just about 24 hours a day, in addition to the in person ones.

Online meeting resources

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Thanks for reaching out. I haven’t joined one yet I know I need to then my anxiety takes over and all the excuses in the world come out :frowning:

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Also thanks for the resource very helpful :slight_smile:

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The nice thing about the online ones is you can leave your camera off and you can just listen. It’s pretty chill :innocent:

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Might be a good way to start thanks

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I was going in well for almost a month last July then relapsed. Recently, I hit the 1 week mark and the very next day fell back. After that I got back to reset my recovery and here I am. As long as you’re helping yourself along with those who are also helping you on your recovery journey, you won’t be alone in this. It is a hard road but it’s better with a company of people helping one another take accountability. The fact that you are able to reach out and be self-aware are already steps. These are big feats in of themselves too.

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Keep trying. Don’t give up.

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I had to stay sober to become happy. You can find the inner strength to do it again