I found a video of an interview with a girl who almost had a mirror of my life and it really moved/affected me.
TW. Interview of a girl in active prostitution talking about her life leading up to where she is in life. It’s not easy to hear her story. And touches on SA/SH/Trafficking/kidnapping/drug use/etc
Thank you for the share. The exploit out there is real. All are victims in the sex industry. It may just be hard for some to admit it.
I hate porn 
the sites are also so deliberate in perpetuating cheating and pedophilia, etc and everyone’s always just enabling eachother no matter how sick it is. I could go on and on. Imagine if the roles were reversed. It’s absolutely a man’s playing field . I’m never gonna contribute to the patriarchy being involved in that BS. and now onlyfans is normalizing it even more even leading women to call sex work feminism when it’s directly feeding the patriarchy . Sorry I’m mad as hell over it all tbh. This world is not made for me
I’ve said this to myself as well. But I believe you and I have very different ideas on what our perfect world would be like.
For me, this messed up mind of mine has a perverted worldview. Pornography provides the best picture of what my “perfect” world looks like. I know it’s wrong consciously, but subconsciously, my mind is pretty messed up.
On the other hand, I think it would be helpful to me if you could describe what your ideal world would look like. If you don’t mind, I would welcome any thoughts that come to your mind concerning this.
Thanks for replying! I just didn’t know what I could say. I guess if I had anything to add, there will always be darkness in the world. It’s up to us to shine a light to those who suffer in that darkness.
Absolutely. I hope that’s what my post portrayed. Not the industry itself, but how people are affected. The behind the scenes of things so to speak…
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Soft white underbelly
Tbh I just wish sex wasn’t a thing that existed sometimes. People have taken it so far in society and it’s only getting worse and worse. I just wish sex was something sacred and everyone wasn’t looking at the ppl around them like a potential meal or something to use later. But I am autistic and I have had bad experiences . I’m aware of the value of sex but I think it’s true value has been ruined. Plus the money hungry ppl behind these sites want you to think it’s a good thing or perfection. Idk I feel if you had the experience of being a woman in this hypersexual world who only bases our value on how mch we can pleasure someone, you’d have a different mindset. Not trying to be shady. It’s truly painful to be a woman most of the time in this world. I’m sorry if this isn’t the response you wanted in all truthfulness I’m not sure what my perfect world would look like all I know is that it wouldn’t look like this.
For example. All the ads on the videos are “____ is 5 miles away and wants to fck!” But the thing is, these ads are ALWAYS for men. There are never these type of ads for women. There are even these ads for gay men, but not women. Imagine if your wife consumed this stuff all the time and she got these ads convincing her to go cheat. Like the disloyalty is only perpetuated one way. & It takes advantage of people in their weakest mindset. My point is just try putting yourself in those shoes.
At the end of the day love matters more to me. And I know lust is the demon that destroys people’s relationships and them in general. I’m very afraid of being cheated on bc all I care about is love. Also, would this still be a perfect world for say, a daughter or a son? The effects of porn and sexualizing everything is very bad for the brain and society. It’s dangerous. Anyway I appreciate your willingness to ask and learn , I see you’re quite active here so kudos for that.
The porn industry is all the things you said, plus more. It glorifies things that are bad/evil. It depicts violence as desirable and it’s misogynistic, racist, and encourages attraction to things that are unnatural.
And yeah, it focuses on Men’s satisfaction. Men are the main market at women’s expense. However, all are victims.
I’ll throw a lifeline out to @Butterflymoonwoman. She can speak to you more on your level, since: A) She’s a woman and can relate better than us, and B) She’s been in the system and has broken free from it.
Thank you for the tag! I am always open to talk or listen when it comes to this topic. Or to answers questions or anything really 
im very much an open book lol I have been out of the sex trade for 8 years now after many years involved in it and grateful that my life is different today 
Hope you don’t mind, but I think I’ll remove a share from a few months ago…i think maybe it is triggering. And I apologize if i triggered anyone here trying to get through their struggles
Thank you for sharing honestly. And I don’t have a whole lot of time today. But I am going to bookmark your posts and I want to be able share some of my thoughts at a later date. As I’ve read some of your insights, I’ve actually found them quite refreshing
That’s why I always try and be honest even if it seems too blunt for some . Also if you’re interested I heard about a medication called naltrexone that is for impulse control and it’s helped significantly for people with this problem and others such as alcohol and opioid addiction.
Much of my journey from breaking free from porn has consisted of challenging a false paradigm, a faulty worldview. In that messed up world, sex is only a physical act. Orgasm through sex is the ultimate pleasure. In this perverted world, nothing is more important than doing the deed. And it doesn’t require relationship, caring, bonding, commitment, emotion, trust, love. In fact, these things are used to get what is considered the only important thing in the universe; physical sex.
It doesn’t matter what the scenario is. It could be anonymous. It could be forced. It could be incest. It doesn’t matter how old, how fat, what the person is wearing. In my perverted world, physical sex is the best thing in the universe. So when people are doing the deed, all that matters in my messed up mind is that the people are experiencing “the best thing in the universe”. It doesn’t matter if it’s rape, incest, cheating, casual, completely viewing one another as sex objects. In my messed up world, using one another as sex objects is the ultimate goal.
So not only must I stop using. I have to break down this false paradigm in my mind. Many people in this addiction have to do the same. It’s not enough to stop. Reality needs to be embraced.
I believe you. Many people feel the same. And hearing this from others forces the addict to face the fact that not all sex feels good. The truth is, in many cases, sex actually feels bad. Some addicts will shrug off such experiences writing them off as people who don’t have enough experience, or even thinking that person is lying. And still holding on to the messed up paradigm that sex is the only thing that matters. Which, in turn, leads to a faulty life.
I admit that I was deluded. Thinking of sex as just a physical thing. And assuming when others talking about sex, that we’re addressing the same thing.
But non-users never refer to sex without relationship, without intimacy, trust, commitment, emotion, love, as sex. To a non-user, sex without those things is never sex. A better word to describe such is perversion. And that’s why so many non-users have a bitter hatred towards porn. It takes something that is meant to be expressed in a personal, exclusive, committed relationship, and perverts it to just the physical act without any of those things.
And it’s taken me a long time to recognize the difference between real genuine, intimate sex, and it’s counterfeit, porn.
I’m autistic too. And love has been a really difficult concept to wrap my head around. When I was part of SLAA meetings, and hearing others share about their love addiction. It was then I discovered that something very different was going on between my head and theirs. I often refer to myself as a love anorexic.
My wife and I have a very unique relationship. I can see her emotional world, even though I don’t always understand it. And I do love her and devote my life to her. I have learned to make her my one and only. And she has endured lots of pain watching me demonstrate disloyalty and betrayal by lusting and fantasizing towards other women. Yet, she’s never left me. In fact, I don’t believe she can. That’s part of her sickness. But I don’t want to be this way. Chasing a false paradigm all of my life thinking it’s okay to entertain 2, or 4, or 10, or 100, or 1000, instead of being content with the one person that matters most, my wife.
And what’s hard for me is that although consciously I have a better understanding of reality, my subconscious, the key decision maker, clearly still holds onto this messed up perverted world-view. Over the decades, I’ve tried to change it, to control it. I can’t. My addict is like a 2 year old bully with the body of a 7 foot tall football player. I cannot reason with it nor can I overpower it.
Kind of like an alcoholic that cannot control his drinking, I cannot control my lusting. So I’ve learned that the best thing for me is to not give my subconscious self the opportunity to lust. I don’t look. I keep all women in my peripheral vision. Knowing that if I give myself permission to look, my messed up brain goes from zero to pervert in less than a second. And learning to serve a new master, God. For if I don’t serve God, I go back to my old masters, which are sin, lust, perversion. And my wife finally feels loved because my eyes and attention are no longer being diverted to others.
So much truth in this statement.
The best word that I can find to describe your experience is miraculous.
It’s miraculous that you feel so differently than I