Im not sure if trigger warnings are needed, but i’ll put one here anayway.
Last week i took 4 overdoses in the space of a week. Running from hospital, hiding from police, having my front door kicked in by police and mental health professionals.
One ended me in resus close to death. I cant help but be disappointed i was found.
Ive lost my children, my partner left me, and theres a good chance i’ll lose my house.
Why is it i still cant stop drinking? My life is worse than ever before, and i feel so alone.
Hey Tasha, not all is lost and you’re still reaching out for answers and help. I couldn’t stop either, tried every way I could imagine but just couldn’t. Was near to losing it all and finally said I’ll do anything to stop feeling this way.
Went to extended stay rehab followed by getting deep in AA and working a program, every day.
Maybe it’ll work for you, too. Can’t hurt to try?
If you cant make it one day at a time, make it one minute at a time. And if that’s too hard, take it one moment at a time. We are all here and we’re rooting for you!
Tasha, I’m sorry to hear things are so bad for you right now. I think a lot of us have been in a place when we realized that alcohol took over, and we could not simply stop. I know I did. It was scary, I became aware that if I didn’t stop it would slowly but surely kill me, and still the compulsion to drink wouldn’t stop.
I found that doing it alone is close to impossible. Do you have anyone who can support you in your early days of sobriety at least? I would strongly suggest you find an AA meeting close to you and join them today.
Crud Tasha. Well, you could see a Doc, do an outpatient detox and hit every AA meeting in town, get a sponor, work the steps and live every day forward like your life depends on it. As mine & yours basically do.
Its saved many from jail and/or death.
In my experience, it’s because your desire to live sober isn’t greater than your desire to escape your reality.
I had my kids taken by child services and placed in foster care. I was rudely interrupted by police at home and forced to go to a mental health and detox clinic. I would get into vicious physical, mental and verbal fights with my wife.
Then I admitted I couldn’t do it my damn way, my way got me where I was. I admitted I needed help from others, I found meetings, I went to IOP classes, I found a therapist. I struggled to find time between work, meetings, IOP, kid visits, therapy for myself and with my wife but I found the time cause I wanted to be sober more than I wanted to be the hot sack of garbage I was when I was in my cups.
Find some meetings, those places and people have resources and information on how to get and maintain sobriety.
I’ve been sober for 4 years 7+ months now, if I can get sober, you can too.
Maybe go to your doctor he or she might refer you to someone who can help youl get good suggestions here but you have to get professional help i think wish you well
