Hey you 
just wanted to send you all the good vibes and hugs and all that good stuff 
how are you feeling today?
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Thank you @littlemisschatterbox, @Cwell and @apes2020 I appreciate that very much. It’s still a mindf**k but there’s nothing that I’ve found to make it easier. I’m excited about the therapy appointment today and I really hope the increased dosage of my meds will help as well. It’s such a strange place to be. Not wanting to get wasted because that would make it worse and then having thoughts of suicide being the only way out of the pain. I don’t know, I’m just sitting with everything right now. I hope you all have a great day today!
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@Rockstar24777 You’re welcome brother, I can understand whatvyour are going through. I’m going through some serious health problems myself but my faith gets me through the day. It would be easy for me to get down on myself and start using again,but I realize GOD gave me another chance and opportunity to clean myself up, work on healing my body and mind.that right there strengthened my faith and determination to do the right thing, wish you all the best brother and remember its going to be alright, GOD got this…stay strong,stay positive and keep the faith!
Checkin in on you @Rockstar24777 I hope your still pushing through man. Hope your day is going well.
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Just wanted to check in. Feeling super lonely tonight. Well I’ve been feeling like this for awhile. I’ve gone on a couple dates but I’ve just felt meh about the whole thing. I’m still in love with my ex and I don’t know when it’s going to go away. I decided I’m not going to go on anymore dates until I’m over her. I want to be in love with the person I’m going to be with and it just sucks because I don’t think I will again. Just wanted to vent.
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Hey Rob, I can somewhat relate. I’ve been divorced 3 years after a 27 year relationship and it is desperately hard to let go of those love emotions. I’ve had counselling, read books, tried crystal healings but yes a very challenging time. Like most people say time heals all wounds but still incredibly difficult to let go. All the best mate.
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Sometimes He speaks to my heart, but not often. Sometimes it’s more a gentle prompting, a gut feeling. Mostly it’s through others that He answers my prayers. A kind word on a sad day, or an encouraging word on a challenging day. A hug from a loved one at just the right time.
The days of the thundering voice from the heavens or burning bushes are long past. It’s OK that you doubt Him. He works nonetheless, using those men in your group, members here on the forum, random people you encounter each and every day.
Some things need to be seen to be believed. Some things need to be believed to be seen.
I am praying for you.
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Thank you @Seb yeah I’ve done the same things including the Crystal healings and stuff too. I’m really sorry about your break up bro that’s a long time to be with someone. Thank you @Yoda-Stevie, I like what you said about things needed to be believed to be seen. That really hit me man thank you 
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Hey Rob! I’ve just found out about this thread you made. I can very much relate to this. Maybe you remembered some of my daily check in posts I made a while back.
Getting over a woman is really though.
I can only speak for myself but what helps me is every time I think of a good memory I also remind myself why things turned sideways. And I try to keep hope alive by telling myself ‘maybe one day’ I’ll find someone’.
I don’t know how this might apply to your situation. Just wanted to reach out and talk ;). I’m here for you. For all things music, guitars and life problems 
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Thank you @Jonachav123 I appreciate that very much. I’m on my last break at work and I’ve been having suicidal thoughts all day. I’ve actually had them for awhile now. I feel like I’m not going to make it through sober and if I drink I know I’ll Jill myself because I won’t have the fear. Thoughts are screaming in my head and I’m just trying to make it through work. I really don’t have a reason to live, everyone I love is dead and the one girl I fell in love with is with someone else and is happy. I’m trying to make it at least to a year before I do something. I was planning on killing myself this weekend but I didn’t know where to get the things I needed to die the way I want too. I’m fucked up in the head really bad right now and I’m fucking broken. I just had to let this shit out man it’s fucked being alive.
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Hey Rob, a little off topic but can I ask who your favourite band/artist is? Keep fighting brother, you got this.
You’re here Rob. Keep talking. We’re not going anywhere and if any of us, including yourself, can help it neither are you. You’re my family. I’m your family. You’re not alone. We’re in this together Rob. That’s not a joke and not an empty phrase. Love you brother. Stay with us. There is a way out.
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Keep believing in yourself friend
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I will add this Rob, even though I am sure there are plenty of folks here who are willing to speak to you in person, myself included, there’s other ways of getting help too my friend:
Crisis Text Line is the free, 24/7, confidential text message service for people in crisis. Text HOME to 741741 in the United States.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
In USA, text 741 741
or call 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255)
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Rob, I don’t know what it feels like for you but I know that’s not the answer for your pain. You are strong enough to get on the other side of this.
Please choose another way to address this pain. You are important and needed, sweetie. Life is hard but we are able to persevere.
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Have you given any thought to joining a grief group?After my first husband killed himself, I was deeply grieving and suicidal and found comfort in being with people who were also grieving. It was hard to go be there, but it did help, as did individual therapy. I also highly recommend calling the crisis line to just talk. It helps to let it out and people are trained to listen. I know it feels like an answer, but it is so final. You are worthy of a longer life and less grief. It takes time for sure and sucks. I hope you will continue to reach out and make some phone calls too. It can lessen your mental load a bit and that can make all the difference. Please stay with us. 
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Rob, Please check in with us. We’re all worried about you. I wish I could reach through this phone and hold you tight in my arms and let you know it’s going to be ok. I know it doesn’t feel like it now, but life will get better. Much love to you friend!
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Your talking sober family and friends love you, need you, and want you to be safe and alive. If all looks dark where you are, try to see the light here. It is here for you. There is help for you here. Stay here. Know that people, real people, care for you and want you safe and alive. Please. Let us be a reason for you to live for these minutes and hours, and days. Let the people here help you find your way out of the darkness.
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Stay sober and stay safe. Don’t do anything to harm yourself cause you have a lot of people who care about you and will miss you if you harmed yourself. Keep your head up man, and do something positive. Hope to hear from you.
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Hey everyone I just wanted to let you know I’m home from work now. I really don’t mean to freak anyone out this is just the only place I can really be honest with what’s happening with me that’s safe. I appreciate and love you all very much and I’m trying my best
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