Hi Stephanie
Welcome to the community.
Wow - you did start the year off great with no drugs and no alcohol - almost 3 months is unbelievable.
Did you do it cold turkey? Did you have help? Were you going to meetings?
I’m sorry that you relapsed. I wouldn’t call it a part of recovery. I do think many of us go through our ebbs and flows in the recovery process. You relapsed and still have the will to be clean - That’s what matters most – Glad you came here and I think its an amazing community with loads of support to help in your recovery.
You are able to do it (already proven this to yourself). If you are already doing meetings (maybe attend a few more at the beginning). Have you considered changing your routine? Many threads here to help you with your recovery –
check out the following threads in particular
Checking in daily to maintain focus #54
Cravings & how to beat them, Isolation vs. Connection, H.A.L.T
Wishing you the best of luck and hope to see you around.