This is so true. In my case I have found the wanting is connected to some kind of habit of using external things to change how I feel (external things can be what I focused my addiction on, but the addiction is really about escaping, so it can be just about anything, including food and sweets in my case). I’m not sure if I’ll ever be truly rid of that tendency to turn to external forces to change how I feel. I’m beginning to think the journey is about the effort, and the effort is where I learn and where I find my calm. Being able to accept where I am at this moment.
You’re getting there. And your cats are feeling the benefits. They will thank you 
Have you been to the cats thread yet? Where my cat people? #4