5 days sober
Damn chat rooms got me today. No Mā¦ I controlled myself.
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Thanks for sharing
nofap challenge 90 : one week completed successfully
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10th day of sobrietyā¦long way to go ā¦ No fap challenge 90 daysā¦
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2days clean from Porn today. I want to live a clean life from now on!
Pray for me tonight guys. I am home alone. Got some work to do on my computer. I will pray for all of you too!
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Howād you do?
Today is the 15th day of my nofap journeyā¦feeling proud of myself
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Way to go @montasir
That is totally something to be proud of! How are you getting it done? What sort of tools are you using to stay clean?
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Hi everyone. Itās been a long time since I have been here.
Nice to see all the encouraging words here. Youāre all amazing!
You havenāt seen me for awhile because I was ashamed and I was acting out.
And what Iāve learned over this past year and a half is that I Am Weak.
No matter what I know or done or experienced, I still have moments of unclarity; moments where Iām not at my best; moments where despite all I know, I still just want to get high.
Traditionally, I tried to maintain clarity at all times, but the bottom line is that I am broken. I am weak. And there is no way that I can maintain 100% clarity, 100% of the time.
I can try, but being that porn is so easily accessible. I cannot promise that if free porn is constantly being held under my nose all the time, that I wonāt succumb. I know itās bad, but if I want to get high, and itās right there, then Iām probably going to take a hit.
Good thing that I also have moments of clarity; times when Iām at my best, wanting to make healthy choices for myself. Like all the rest of you here.
Each morning, before I go to work, Iāve been setting a block on my smartphone that keeps away from any web browser or the play store until the next morning.
So right now I cannot act out unless I get a new device. So far, this has helped me stay sober from porn and mb for 12 days now. Otherwise, my weak self would not be able to resist. I laughed in joy this morning when I reset my lock. Because that meant that I would probably stay sober another day.
Sorry that Iāve been away for so long.
I am working two jobs now so my time is limited. But I still want to post here when I can.
Blessings to all of you here. Itās very encouraging to witness.
Never give up,ā¦ Never.
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Hello @KevinesKay weāre glad to have you back. Big congratulations on 2 weeks man! Sounds like your lock on your phone is a helpful tool. What else are you going to do to succeed this go round?
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Welcome back! No need to be ashamed. Just get back at recovery. Stick around and use us as a lifeline.
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@KevinesKay!!! Omgosh,like @Bill_Phillips might be the only other person that knows how much Iāve missed you.
I actually came on here tonight contemplating talking about my feelings, cuz I feel lightly borderline and I think itās because of the changes. Iāve relapsed also.omgosh idk where to start, just knowing youāre back gives me more hope in some ways, in spite of the fact that you werenāt out being Superman in all the time youāve been gone. Lol. But you were a real encouragement to me when I started out here and a lot of people have disappeared; some because they no longer need this, some because theyāre ashamed. Welcome back buddy! Take it moment by moment!
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Well, thank you everyone!
Good to hear from all of you.
@Victorious, @Bill_Phillips. Please accept my apologies for being away so long.
I donāt intend on being a stranger.
@DungeonMaster, Iāve been amazed at what youāve been able to achieve. You should be proud.
@Mtrav0040, you asked what else I intend to do. Well, I will start with locking down my computer at home. Iām going to activate both my Fox filter and timekpr. My wife and daughter have the passwords.
Tonight, I intend to finish installing shocks on my car. Two days ago, one of them broke in half on the way home from work and took out my tire.
Take care everyone.
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Youtube videos actually are helping me a lotā¦there are many videos about no fap journeyā¦i have learned that it takes about 90 days or plus to reboot your brain activityā¦brain starts to function as normal if we give it atleast 3 monthsā¦ Thats why its important to give this challenge a tryā¦u can search no fap journey or no fap benifits in youtubeā¦u will be inspired to stay clean after watching thoseā¦atleast it is working for meā¦i recommend you to give it a shotā¦Thanks for askingā¦
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Sober today, and very weak.
Still have a block on my phone so I cannot act out. But I wanted to as soon as I got done with work.
I need to seriously rethink my internet usage. During my longest stretch of sobriety which lasted 2 years, I had no internet. It was a great period of growth. But I was not strong enough then to handle it. What am I thinking to allow such availability to porn now? If I couldnāt handle it then, I certainly cannot handle it now.
And thatās okay. Everyone needs a little help.
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So, as my phone locks expired this morning, I felt good about resetting them again. But knowing that tomorrow, Sunday, is my day off, I just couldnāt guarantee that I would have enough resolve to stay away from the porn sites. That could be a big trigger for me. So I locked my phone until Monday morning. Yeah!
So far, this is good. I have other ideas to improve my boundaries, but they will take a lot of time and work to implement. I will share them on my accountability log at a later time.
Iāve been really joyful and happy for the past few days. Feeling a lot of hope. Not feeling very strong addiction wise; lacking custody of my eyes at times. Learning that recovery is not just about removing temptation, but preparing oneself when the temptation arrives. And I donāt have to be perfect to succeed.
Right now I just got home. Going to finish up the repair on my car. Shocks are in, but I still have to install a tire before I go to work at my second job. And since Iām home, I will reset the filter on my home computer since I havenāt had a chance to do that yet.
Thanks everyone. Youāre awesome!
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21 days of sobriety guysā¦without porn and masterbationā¦
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