Staying away completely. Realization that it’s appealing but it’s completely false and unreal.
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Thanks, man. I know I am not really alone, but I always feel like I am anyway. I feel a lot better having had you reach out to me though 
I will consider that book, and consider some of the things you’ve brought up. But you are exactly right; I have to do more to change more. It’s a choice, and I need to choose better haha.
I have actually began thinking about counseling, and maybe joining a program of some kind. Maybe I should look into it this time haha
Thanks; 2 days is a lot for me. Still clean at 2 and a half days, and looking promising right now
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You ought to check out He Restoreth My Soul. You can probably find it in most Church Bookstores. Its written by a prominent church psychologist. Haven’t read the whole of it. It talks about the science of pornography addiction and how it affects the brain, how to overcome it, and how the atonement of Christ can heal.
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Hi…doing fine…43 days now…how about you?
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Hanging in at 118. Fielding some negative thoughts this evening and trying to read to get through it. Going to get my head in a book here in a minute.
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Keep your head in the game and you’ll get through it. Currently at 37 days here.
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Thanks, @DungeonMaster, I think I will look into that book as well. Now I’ve got two on my reading list haha
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Day 3 is done Feeling a bit better, but still a bit depressed. Nothing to worry though, I am sure all this is normal. Thanks for the support, everyone. Let me know if I can help out in any way haha
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Great!!!excellent achievement…
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Every day clean is an achievement! One day at a time.
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Its True…
Definitely normal. I’ve had my moments of sulking and depression… Eventually it fades and your true self emerges.
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That is good to know, thanks!
Yesterday was a bit challenging, and last night became rough this morning (dreams of relapsing), and it’s messing with my head a bit 
But I am hanging in much better than a few days ago. I am choosing to stay clean, and that is just going to have to be that haha
Glad to know I am still in here somewhere haha
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I just stopped myself from relapsing at the this very moment. Had a site open… And I just didn’t want to be there anymore. 16 days in… I’m not going back 
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Good! Don’t go back!
It’s funny you say that, because I am actually struggling a bit right now to be honest. Trying to stay busy, but the thoughts occupy my time so much. 
I am happy you shared, because you reminded me how much I hate going back myself.
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Don’t Do it!!! Don’t purposely hurt yourself for a few moments of bliss… Remember after it’s all over…then the feelings start to set in.
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Isn’t that the worst part; it’s always afterwards that you feel it haha 
I won’t, I promise to you guys here that I am not going to do it. I need this change more than ever, so I am not about to let it get me this time haha!
Thanks for not giving in, as well
Struggling here guys at day 14. Nice to see people here are not giving up.
@Swim_Track_18, I don’t believe I’ve said, “Hi,” to you yet. Nice to meet you.
And congrats on the 4 days.
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Hey @KevinesKay! I am a bit new here but have been quietly sitting in the background until just recently. It’s good to meet you as well!
Don’t give up quite yet, either. Congratulations on 14 days I can’t wait until I am that far along haha
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Well, it turns out that I’m home alone for a couple of hours. It helps that I prepared my house for these moments.
Because if I had the chance, I would be acting out now. I know that about myself.
As I mentioned before, my phone is locked from accessing the internet.
My computer at home is password locked. I don’t know the password.
I can’t even watch TV. There’s a password lock on it too.
Perfect. Now I’ve got nothing to do besides things that are beneficial to me. Want to act out, but not enough to leave the house or go buy a new device.
Maybe I’ll play my guitar instead.
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