Bless u I will pray for you
I can’t imagine how this must make you feel
You’re not abusing women in the flesh and you recognise their beauty but somehow that’s all been made squiffy and screwed up (no pun intended) with porn. Good luck I’m sure you’ll do just fine
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Day 5 ending. I bless the Lord for giving me strength today to continue
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Have you heard of In The Rooms? It’s an app that has virtual meetings. I do a Sex Addicts Anonymous meeting once a week on that app. Check it out. Sorry you were laughed at. Ppl like to shame us & not take us seriously. These mertings have porn addicts just like you. I hope you join us.
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I heard @XXIX about the rooms and in fact I have the app but I don’t know exactly how to connect through the app. I will love to do it. I habe been in SA in the past
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I relapsed today. Been under so much pressure lately. Details below in case you don’t want to hear it.
Summary
Had a vasectomy a while ago. Was told that I needed to have at least 20 ejaculations over a certain number of weeks before having my semen tested for sperm count. It’s been really frustrating, because I feel like I need to perform. Normally we have sex spontaneously, never planned. Sometimes we go a while without and sometimes it’s frequent. Now I have this deadline facing me and I’ve found that with the pressure of needing to actually have sex frequently, it’s diminished my desire considerably. We have had sex 10 times and aren’t even close to reaching the goal within the time frame. The stress got to me though and I resorted back to known unhealthy outlets. It’s so sick that I can be turned on by porn, but the actual act is now difficult. I really feel like my addiction is progressing, even though I go months between abuses. I’m so frustrated with the whole stupid situation. Thanks for listening.
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Sorry Rob to hear about your relapse . I hate relapsing. I really do. It’s just God’s way of showing that I have much to learn. It’s sad how our addictive selves tell us how acting out is going to solve things like making our lives less stressful or compensating for our lack of sexual intimacy with our wives. Instead, it just makes everything worse, 100% of the time.
I can see how frustrating this can be. I’ve been there many times not knowing what step I should take next. God is faithful. He will lead us on the right path. He’s bigger than all of this. I trust and believe that He will complete the work that He began in you. I really do. Don’t lose hope. Never give up, ever.
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Thanks! It’s just been frustrating, but I’m never giving up. Pick myself up, dust myself off and continue on. I agree with you on the point on relapse, sometimes I feel like God allows me to relapse just because I still have things to learn. Like I need to know that I can’t do things on my own. I actually am powerless to my addiction and require God and systems in my life to combat this.
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Dear @DungeonMaster how are you today? Courage! My dear friend!!! Don’t forget how much you’re loved and cherished by Jesus no matter what
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I’m completely fine. Weird how a relapse can feel to catastrophic, but literally like two days later it’s like it never happened. I kind of hate that. Like it really should make a worse impact on my life. Maybe I’d think twice next time if it did…
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We tend to numb feelings . I understand you very much
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Have you read Easy Peasy yet?
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Maybe I started it, not sure if I finished though.
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Lol.
The EasyWay books specifically mention this; saying that those that don’t finish the book, stop reading because they know if they continue, they know they’ll have to stop.
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Lol! It’s not that. It’s that I fall asleep when reading physical books. I’m an audiobook person. And yes, I know there’s a recording of the book. But, it’s a YouTube video, not an actual audiobook that I can take on the go with me.
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Here’s a link to the audio book in MP3 format
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Awesome. I’ll check this out!
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This video guys, this is a story of how p*rn can ruin your life:
Focus on your true goals in life, not momentary pleasures.
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I’m starting to listen to this book. Why does the book say to continue to use p*rn to while masturbating?
As with all EasyWay books by Allen Carr, this one does not require the reader to give up their DOC. Only to question their relationship with it and to challenge the brainwashing that the DOC offers something of value. Thus, when the reader finishes the book, the desire to use is greatly diminished or completely gone.
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