Hahahahaha that’s just the guest bathroom lol that made me laugh!
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I’m such a shower snob lol 
I like a big shower head. And preferably a seat in the shower so I can sit for as long as I like and pretend I’m sitting under some picturesque Hawaiian water fall lol
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Lol your funny yeah I use that shower only after work because welding metals.
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Thank you again. I really needed to hear this. Although we are all very different. It seems our brains act very much the same. Ive played the tape to the end but that only lead to hangover. I never thought to break it down and realize all the parts the night will have the good and bad. It makes more sense. This time around I don’t feel deprived which is good. But I may get that feeling sometime. Feel strong right now. Thank you for your insight. I’m looking forward to keeping you posted and your feedback along the way. It feels like you know what is going on in my head. You can help untangle my thoughts. Thanks again
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Hello Emily!
Well if not the hungover what exactly it is what makes you wanting to stop drinking? To me it was my very bad behaviour and blacking out every night, not having a control over my drinking whatsorever and ending up just embarassed. People who knew me didn’t even want to drink with me anymore. My life had no sense and I was very very depressed the day after. And when I played the tape I could clearly see all of these things happening if I’d have a drink. And it made me sick and not wanting the drink.
I don’t anymore feel that I NEED or MUST to stay sober. I now know that I WANT to stay sober. It’s a huge difference. Because in the first case you’re staying sober using your willpower meantime craving booze. And it is very hard to live this way because you moved nowhere. Your life is still about alcohol, just this time you concentrate on rejecting it although you want it so badly. That’s why it doesn’t usually lasts for long. It’s too exhausting rejecting something what is literally surrounding us. Sooner or less we find an excuse to pick the drink up again and go back to hell. I was on this way of quiting and relapsing for three years…
But if you realise that alcohol is not benefitial to you at all and that it rather makes your life harder, then it would be insane to keep drinking, right? Fortunatelly I eventually opened my eyes and I saw all the trueth. Simply because my life is so much better 
I like one quote:
“Sobriety gives you everything what alcohol was only promising.” (Or something like that). We’re basically chasing something but can we really find it at that bottom of the bottle? If so, how many bottles would we have to empty until we finally get there? Alcohol might looks satisfying or comforting from the beginning. But later it will stop work and all we were running away from will at the end catch us anyway. Problems need to be solved. Not drank away.
Drink is not solution. Not for anxiety, it just give us feeling of confidence. Which is fake. We look rather ridiculous. Not for happiness. The buzz doesn’t last forever and again, it’s just fake. You wouldn’t find funny some of people or situations if you were sober. Believe me, just because they’re not funny. And not for anothet thousands and thousands reasons hidden in people’s drinking.
You’re right. We all might be individuals but addiction has some things common for all of us. But not all of us realise the same things. We are in different stages of addiction and difderent personalities. If you’re open minded and able to reflect, re-view, learn…then you might be get out of that never ending cycle of drinking and regrets. It’s never easy, but it worth and step by step you can get to the freedom you deserve 
Thank you for your words, by the way. It made me very happy that I maybe encourages you a little bit more and moved you for a bit closer to staying sober 
I’m going to be pleased if you want to keep me updated 
I am with you, girl
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I’m in this phase too. Your words helped me to see more clearly. Thank you!
Great words.
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My transformation pic is reversed. Top 2, 4 yr ago. Bottom 2, recently. I’m literally killing myself drinking a bottle vodka a day.
So, yesterday I downloaded this app. Last night I said no to a party of alcohol and cocaine, today I managed to go to the supermarket and not sneak out a bottle of vodka. Just hit 25 hours sober, may not be alot, but its more than I’ve done in 4 yrs. Pretty proud of myself
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Oh Nicci, I’m so glad you’re here…! I truly hope you stick around and find what has helped so many of us here. Read and post as much as you can/need. Welcome!
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Thank you Donna, I plan to stick like glue!
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Thank you Nordique. Ready to conquer day 2.
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It takes a lot of courage to admit we have a problem and work on it. Keep working keep trying you deserve to live your best life. It will get better. 
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Welcome Nicci. This is a wonderful start. We all had to start somewhere. I believe most of us started at the bottom. Not at the top. You got one day. Keep it that way. Just one lousy day at a time. None of us planned to end up the way we did from drinking. I know I didn’t. We are all worth the happiness of sobriety. You are definitely worth it.
Great job. Finding us. Lots of people can be very helpful here. Use us!! Use us before you pick up again. It’s hard. But so worth it.
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I’m pretty good at makeup and filters so in my active addiction I still managed to pull it together, buuuut, pictures of me without makeup and obviously uh. Not good, exist so.
Despite my embarrassment here is
Me, super fucked after having not slept and still on my bullshit
The day after I was super blacked out on booze and Xanax and fell face first into my friends nice TV
Aaaand some cute ones from recently. I tried to find some where I wasn’t heavily filtered and wearing a bunch of makeup but this is the best I can do. The change is mostly in my eyes.
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Beautiful. sobriety looks good on you!
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I am so proud of you for your first 24 hours! How are you doing today?
I hope you stick around and we get to help you along the way. Lots of really great stuff on this app.
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For me the first day was always the worst. So, congratulations! 
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Welcome to TS! You’re new life begins today! Come here if you need support, post early and often. Read posts to interact and gain knowledge. Get some new hobbies or revisit old ones. I wish you all the luck on your journey. You CAN do this!!
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Is your name really Knives like in Scott pilgrim ?
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