I am sitting in a carpark wanting to buy vodka so much, I am on day 144. Just had an argument with my brother who thinks he is always right and tries to make me look and feel stupid. I am talking to myself about having a drink and why shouldn’t I. Will just go home and not hurting anybody else. Just can’t see the point in being sober, feel completely empty, only time I was happy was when I was drinking.
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Go this whole thing through. How will you feel tomorrow morning after this ‘little’ drink?
Is there something else you can do instead? Punch a pillow, cry in the forest. Whatever it takes to express your feelings. Bottling them up won’t help. That’s for sure.
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I’m sure that’s lies. Addiction always lies. Addiction sees your in a weak spot and seizes its chance. Good you came here friend. Tells me you don’t want to give in. Your sobriety is more worth than that. Your life is more worth than that. Only sober you can build a better you. Don’t give in. We’re in this together.
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If that were true, you wouldnt be here. I said pretty much the same thing in the beginning. I will be honest, it took getting sober to know what happiness truly is.
This feeling will pass, stay sober.
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I think you know better then this, otherwise you weren’t here.
It’s your addict voice speaking. I have one too, call her the winewitch. The longer I’m sober the less I hear her.
Glad you came! Go home and add another day sober. Tomorrow you are glad you did!
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Hey,
You’re almost half way through a year of sobriety. That’s big! I’m proud of you. If someone tries to make you feel such negative feelings about yourself then they are damaged. You are damaged too, but look at you trying to repair you damages. Thats huge! Don’t let someone elses broken parts break you. If you’re part of AA then i suggest going to a meeting. If you’re not part of AA then i suggest trying a meeting. AA and NA have been around for a looooong time and have helped so many. Even if you just go and listen and not say a word, it’ll probably help.
Keep going strong, just for today. Tomorrow you can see how you feel and go from there.
But for today. I KNOW you can make it til tomorrow
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These are the moments that can really bolster your sobriety… If you can say fuck you to those voices in your head, and win this battle you’ll be so much stronger for it. If you wanted to drink you wouldn’t be here. Stay sober just for today, tomorrow can sort itself out.
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Agree with earlier comment think it all the way through … will it help with your brother ? Will it make u feel better in the long run ? Are u only feeling nothing makes u happy as your in a bad place at minute ?
You have done so well stay the course and well done for reaching out ADAAT 
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I am sorry you are feeling upset. I understand that unsettled feeling and the whole ‘ugh I am feeling’ thing…it can be so unsettling.
Were you really happy when drinking? Or just not feeling? I certainly was miserable when I drank. Not that I am all rainbows now or life isn’t challenging…but I don’t have that horrible specter of alcohol and hangovers and feeling like shite hanging over my head anymore.
I hope you are okay. And didn’t buy the vodka. We are here for you. 
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Thanks everybody, I find it quite unbelievable that people will take time to reply to somebody they don’t even know. Today was the worst day for me since I left rehab. Found out yesterday that my mum has heart failure so I think that has made me a bit emotional. Anyway I sat in the carpark around an hour having 2 voices in my head having a conversation about drinking. I actually managed to calm down and come home without going in the shop. Just wanted to say thank you to everyone and tomorrow is another day.
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Great job 
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In a way we do know you, you are us. We’ve fought very similar battles and walked very similar paths. I’m glad you made it 
. I’m sorry about the news and your mom. Best wishes
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Thanks for checking in. Emotions can be rough, but we can ride them thru. Caring about your Mom and her health is a positive in my mind. 
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Hi 
I’m so proud of you for not giving in.
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Great to see you didnt let the horrible addict voice win. Im sorry about your ma, i hope she gets the treatment she needs.
You should be proud of yourself. You showed real grit today, so now you know you have this strength in you to carry on.
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I’m sorry you had a fight. Will the fight be solved with vodka or will it potentially make the fight worse? There’s nothing drinking won’t make worse.
Insults and humiliation are rough. At least for myself, the ego is a powerful force. While it’s never okay to be subjected to any form of abusive behavior, sometimes the ego can be the enemy.
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Ooh, I have hovered in carparks thinking about buying booze.
The happiness you feel when drinking is false. It is a chemical hallucination. The only way to fill emptiness in a way that is meaningful and long lasting is to work on making a meaningfull sober life for yourself.
I am sorry for your family troubles. But always good to remember that there is nothing that booze can’t make worse. Being sober, present. logical is the only way to deal with troubles.
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Morning, it’s 5.24 a.m in England and I managed 4 hours sleep. Feeling a bit down but am so happy I didn’t drink. Really amazing how people support each other on here. It was definitely a massive reason I didn’t drink last night. So thank you again to everyone 
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Good one to see/read on my way to work this morning friend. Thanks and have a good day.
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Yes and thank you to you as well. Sometimes people really surprise me and remind me how caring humans can be.
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