Gonna give writing here a go again. Saw this today and it fits so well! Here’s to progress, not perfection!
Some homework from therapy has been to spend more time recognizing, appreciating and celebrating my successes, no matter how small. I decided to join in on the “post your transformation” thread as a result of looking back through old photos as a way to see my journey in the last several years. While the photos I focused on were not from my last major relapse (which I talk about on the first post of this thread) they do represent what I see as the first time I realized I was desperate to not be what I was, where I was, a completely broken person hiding from the world and myself, too. I recognize this change I have worked hard on, to not retreat so completely when I am struggling and hide from my problems, from my feelings, from my fears. I have made a lot of progress here, more to come, but I am proud of that! Just to help keep things in an accessible place for me, I’ll link that post here. Something else we are talking about in therapy is diving deep into the why - why did I drink in the first place and how did that why change over time. This is a way to start looking at trauma in my life and my response to it and then to other typical life stressors as a result. I’ve spent countless hours thinking about this and writing in my journal or on here about it, but it will be really helpful to look at this with a therapist. Doin’ the work!