Four months! Congrats! 
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Looking good TF
And congrats on the 4 months.
Well done.
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Congratulations, four months is fantastic! 
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Hello friends. Yes im here again with another rambling post. Sorry in advance. My day was great. Because I made it great. Sometimes I feel like Iām living a lie. Pretending to be happy when certain obstacles are making me feel empy inside like sooo emptyā¦ I canāt let that shit talk in. I am not empty I AM happy and surrounded by love from so many people in my life. I refuse to let the negativity control and block me from seeing and enjoying the GOOD that is right in front of me. Cleaning the house, doing laundry, running errands and swimming with my dad and son. Itās been a great day. But I still sit and wonder. Why do I feel like I am not doing enough. Guilty that Iām living and loving my life and it cant involve my husband 90% of the time. Iām hurting and so happy at the same time. Itās a very confusing Rollercoasterā¦ Iām tired.
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We get a promise from the Divine when we get sober - everything is gonna be alright. You might not know right now what form that will take, and itās ok to not know. Your husband will be alright, you will be alright. Your plan to embrace the positive and send love back to the negative is a good one.
You have the strength in you and through the Divine in you to handle this.
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Oh hey! Heck yeah on three years! 
Well earned, lady, well earned. Hereās to many more.
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Amazing, well done 
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MTB is the best! Hashtag 
keep pedaling
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Thank you bro!!! 
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Dude have fun Zombie puts on a fucking amazing show!
I got to indirectly meet him at a show when he was cruising through the crowd.
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I imagine my wife felt much the same way, watching her husband insist on drinking, passing on ālifeā. What you have that she didnāt was empathy: she didnāt know the pull that bottle has, how easy it is to say āyesā, and how hard to say ānoā.
What you have that your husband doesnāt is knowledge and experience in how full life can be, when you break away from booze. That sense of freedom, the pleasure of actually living life. You love him, so you want him to experience the same joy as you.
Just keep hoping and praying. Keep setting the example. Keep living and healing and growing. For your son and the others who care about you. For your husband who will need you to show him how sober is done, if he chooses it. AND for YOU. You decided to be free, and are doing the work to stay free. Youāve earned the right to be happy and content. Be happy and content.
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1442 days sober! Took my 3 year old on her first hike today. She got a free ride most of the way, but she did go about 1/4 mile on her own.
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Woooooooooow!!! So many CONGRATULATIONS to you on this milestone! Sometimes it creeps up on me how long Iāve āknownā the regulars of TSā¦even if I donāt regularly interact. I always appreciate hearing your introspective and thoughtful approach to sobriety here, maybe I should say it moreā¦ and am blown away by the idea that I have have learned from you for three years now. I hope that your day is full of lovely doggy and life filled things 
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Awe thanks for your kind words @ELY83 it sure feels nice to be seen and appreciated!
Also wanna thank @Dolse71 @Tragicfarinelli @Eke and @Rockstar24777 and @Matt for your posts! Like I said in RL youād be sitting at mine with 
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Invitation extended to my dears @mleclaire and @Apollo_666. Your support means a lot to me!
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~4 yrs, 2 months. Somewhere around there.
Up since 2am, which is batshit even for me.
I need a haircut and a shave, my mustache needs manicuring, my hat is filthy.
Weāll call it āruggedā. Yes, rugged. Thatās it.
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3 years sober is strong. Keep getting after it!
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Congratulations F, that is wonderful to see 
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