164 days alcohol free, 8 days weed-free. thru sobriety i have been able to shift to such a different perspective of the pleasure-pain cycle and i’m grateful to be grounding & expanding my sense of being thru transcending these base animal biological survival functions, and witnessing more subtle structures of the mind-body matrix so i can be more present and better innerstand “self”. life is a whole TRIP!! 
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Wow! 1 year! Awesome! 
Me and my guy in Seattle for my birthday this last weekend 
So thankful for this man who’s entered my life and brought light with him:heart: He’s been sober 16 years!!
“Thank you for loving me when I still tasted of heartache and war.”
“I don’t think anyone is ever ready, but when someone makes you feel alive again, it’s kind of worth the risk.”
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So happy for you. You look happy 
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I am I haven’t introduced him yet on here but this is Jackson. We met back in June and well, he just never left lol
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The good ones don’t. Amazing news Sarahya, you deserve it all
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Thank you so much. Life is crazy. His parents passed when he was young due to addictions as well so he’s been able to really relate to my kids which has been beautiful for them. And he honors Daniel as if he were something sacred. I definitely got lucky. He’s a healthy and safe love. It’s weird, I’ve never had that before. I think I like it though
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Sounds perfect and a good starting point for you. High functioning addicts have a crazy tolerance for dissonance and riot; we often find peace translates as boredom. But in reality, security and peace is all me need to grow as long as we make the effort to grow something. Wishing you and Jackson all the best. Daniel will never be forgotten. I’m so happy for your children as well 
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Yes 100% I use to self sabotage bad because I was so use to chaos I would panic when things went “too good”. It’s taken a lot of therapy, tragedy and figuring out Sarahya but I think I’ve finally worked through that. I’ve had enough go wrong to never need another lesson in heartache again. 
hopefully anyways lol thank you for your kind words, appreciate it more than you know
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Steelhead…lol…love it
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Good to see you happy 
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Oh I love this Sarahya. So good to see you happy and enjoying life again 
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I’m happy for you Sarahya, you 2 make a nice couple 
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wow @Sarahyab i am getting so emotional seeing this i am so happy for you and the kids for this blessing of Jackson!!! 
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I’m really, really happy for you homie. You deserve every bit of happiness that rolls into your life. 
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We all totally deserve to be happy, healthy and loved. So glad you two found each other!
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looking great Megan – so lovely to meet you
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