I hear you @Brittb12 I almost fell asleep tonight twice in a big book study. 
it has been a long day but I just carried on…
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Nice to see you again James, you look good.
You seem relaxed on this picture, hope you are 
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What @Just_Laura said.
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Day 55, I wish I could say that things are going great, that I’m feeling great. But I can’t because I don’t. Last few days have been hard, really hard. I choosed to share my story here a few days ago, just to get things out of my own head, and to get a chance to moving forward in sobriety. However I haven’t talked about and trying to forget about it for more than 10 years, and I might have had the opposite effect. It’s in my head more than ever. Last few days has been filled with nightmares, uncomfortable flashbacks and raids all over the house after something to make it go away.
But I’m still here, looking like I feel, crappy. I guess all selfies can’t be a ray of sunshine or a bright smile.
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Aww, thank you 
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yes almost normal… if you weren’t sat with a rug on your shoulder you might have got away with normal 
. Great sober days all the same buddy.
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What’s the restrictions like for you there at the restaurant? You’re doing it girl so keep it up!
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first sober selfie! Idk if i was supposed to scroll all the way up to post or just on someone’s reply… sorry if i messed it up, still learning the site. 18 days sober!!
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Congrats!! I will say, every time you write it, speak it, yell it out, whatever you choose to do, your chipping away at it! Your dealing and feeling it and for damn sure it hurts, but it’s also being dealt with and not hidden anymore! That’s a great thing! The more your able to get it out of your head, the more you’ll heal those wounds. Much love and luck!!
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Thank you. I hope it works that way, but for now I’ve got it more in my head that ever. And that’s not a good thing. I know it’ll pass eventually, I’m just not feeling like I’m gonna make it until it does. But I’m just in the beggining of all this so I probably will 
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As hard as it may be, keep being positive! At first it sounds dumb and like "ya ok lady " but it helps. The more negative you let in, the worse you’ll feel. Keep your head up!! It’ll all work out 
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That’s actually one thing I’m good at. I get anxious, I get confused, I sometimes gets upset or mad. But for the most time I’m happy and Positive, so I’ll keep on to that. Thank you for cheering me up
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You look beautiful. I love your glasses 
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Thank you so much
I’m sure you are right, I need to do this now and get it out of my head for real. And as you’re saying there’s no other way to go than forward from here. I really appreciate your support and the cheering to keep on. Thank you 
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I know you’re right, I just thought it might be easier. And not affect me this much.
I’m kinda getting professional help, I’ve got a childhood friend who works with addicts as a therapist. We studied together a long time ago, and he’s always been around. I choosed to drink and he choosed to make a carrier out of our studies. The past 10 years we’ve been talking every day. It’s the annoying friend I blocked a few days ago because he wouldn’t stop nagging on me about the fact that I have to deal with this for real. Didn’t took me long to realize he was right, so we’re back talking again and he promised to help me out.
I’m not sure I could manage to talk to someone I don’t know.
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Really? Have you ever tried? It’s good to have people who know and love you, to hold you accountable, but the familiarity can also complicate things. An ethical professional maintains a certain emotional detachment, which allows them to see and say things that family and friends cannot, for fear of damaging the relationship.
Sometimes we need the cold, hard truth.
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I’ve never tried, because in my opinion I never had anything serious to get help for. I might need it now, but I’m gonna wait a little bit and see.
I don’t think my friend would avoid being honest because he doesn’t want to make me sad. We’re past that long ago, he is the most upfront and annoying person I know.
But you might be right, and I’m keeping that in mind,thank you.
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Your friend sounds like a great accountability partner.
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