Squirt's daily check in

35 months+ sober. . . I know I need sleep and I will catch up when I can. At the moment my lil mind is processing a lot. In 3 months I will have lived here 2 years. I have come a long way yet struggle to acknowledge it. It still hurts to love a man I was friends with before & after I got sober. I am thankful for our relationship and how I have learned and affirmed myself. I think of my Dad & my cuz everyday & am thankful for their teachings, as I am thankful for the teachings of many who went to the spirit world too soon. I am thankful for the pain I feel in my heart as it’s a reminder of how deeply I love. I miss my pets in the spirit world and am thankful for the cats living with me now. Each of them has brought love, laughter & teachings as I connect with them. I embrace my love for the many connections I have within mother nature and my abilit to access so much from my house. Although I am experiencing some physical setbacks I am still getting up & showing up to live life on life’s terms. I have purged and released so much information regarding trauma, drama & conflict, over my years in this world, that I’m sure it would make other’s heads spin. I continue to fight for the injustices I have been subjected to & am often in a catch 22 or hurrying up only to wait. I surprise myself some days when I put my sober head on my pillow but without doing so I would risk my relationships with my children and grandchildren. That’s something I absolutely refuse to do. Love and laughter make my world go around and my circle is growing :white_heart::yellow_heart::heart::black_heart:

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35 months+ sober. I actually made it through the week without completely losing my cool. I don’t even want to count how many times I was tested as none of it matters tonight. I am more than thankful for the rain and thunderstorms, beginning the wee hours of this morning, and the reprieve and coolness they provided. The events and obstacles of today are behind me & I am thankful for the support I had while traversing them. I am proud of myself as I sit on my back deck soaking up the sounds of nature, sipping my tea & winding down. I won’t drink because I don’t fucken drink & I’ll continue to live life on life’s terms as positively as I can.

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I wanted to say that I think you are doing amazing. Well, maybe telling this to myself as well. You say you are stubborn and I think saying this it great. I am stubborn as well, I can be but without knowing that I am when I am I cannot make another choice. Going back, thinking again and maybe change my mind.
It’s good to read your updates here :sunflower::upside_down_face::blossom:

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Glad to be a part of your daily journey :orange_heart: Life is better sober. Not easier but better.

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Hey Michelle! Great to see you checking in!

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I miss you beautiful. When I slow down from traversing all this shit, I REALLY need to catch up on your thread so I know how you’re doing. Please know I miss you bunches and am always rooting for you. :kissing_heart:

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