Wow, Michelle! I’ve followed this thread for quite some time. What happened to you? It’s a complete 180 degree change. I’m grateful that you shared your gratitude with us. It will help me stay sober today. Inspired by you.
Im 11 days sober today and waking each morning without a hangover is awesome. I have to work whis morning then going to visit my sister-in-law for a swim. The husbandsvwill arrive later for dinner and i know my brother in-law will offer me a drink for happy hour and im already practicing my no thank yous and what i should say. I dont want to be tempted to have a drink and the positive thing is my sister-in-law doesnt really drink so thats helpful. It will be a busy day but im sure fun too.
32 months+ sober. As I reflect on what feels like a fairly uneventful long day, I go to bed feeling proud of myself. I learned today that I believe others take my good qualities for granted as they appear to judge my weaknesses. I am proud to be able to accept others’ faulty perceptions of me. I am proud to love myself while accepting my flaws, that others can no longer use against me. I am proud of the courage to change the things i want to & proud to not hold others responsible for my flaws. I accept where I am on this journey of healing & I will not drink because I don’t drink.
32 months+ sober. As I lay in a spot I layed a surprisingly pounding beer bitch brain almost 3 years ago, I am thankful for coming full circle as I reflect on me today. I have had a bit of a rollercoaster day, in my own head, as I voiced this morning I must be careful what I pray for. This morning & earlier this afternoon I was overwhelmed with the signs and blessings. Again I am reminded of the importance of one day at a time, staying in the moment & doing what I need to and what I want to AND feeling the feelings while not staying in them. I am thankful for my personal awareness but at times I admit its emotionally tiring. I used to complain about being sick & tired of being sick & tired and noticed when I layed the bottle down I was no longer frequently sick or tired. Now my heart is tired and in need of healing and having faith in people in my circles. Today would’ve been my furbaby’s 16th birthday. He hasn’t been gone a year and I almost feel like I didnt even have time to grieve the loss. I know in my heart where he is & I know he is with his mother, my late father and other paws that crossed our pathes. Today my heart hurts as I don’t want to need anyone but know I don’t want to be alone. This afternoon will be taken one step at a time as I’m thankful for today & will walk through it slowly. I won’t drink because I don’t drink & I will pay attention to my heart.
33 months+ sober. Had some real uncomfortable moments today. Although I didnt feel like drinking I was aware I was looking for something to soothe myself. I was “triggered” by another person’s words & actions and was able to verbalize how I was feeling. How this person reacted wasn’t what I expected and after they left my house I knew I was in survival mode. I’m thankful for my awareness and I’m extremely grateful to have a friend I can talk to about past trauma, behaviors and healing ways. I’m still shocked how my growth can bring pleasure while feeling so much pain. I want to feel pride for my awareness of unhealthy behaviors but I don’t think my heart has healed enough yet. I want to know I am enough & I am worth it and ODAAT I’m getting there. I won’t drink because I don’t drink & I’m committed to healing my heart on this journey.
33 months+ sober. As I sit in my pj’s and do some reflecting, I’m feeling confused. My head has felt pressure (due to atmospheric changes) most of the day and although it’s not a new feeling per se, it adds to a racing sober mind. I ponder what is considered too long to sit with uncomfortable feelings. . .I ponder what it means to process and not get stuck in “it”. I’ve been told I’ve leveled up in my recovery, but today I feel a lil lost in my own mind. Sharing this is somewhat uncomfortable as I am unable to adequately put into words what I’m feeling. I know that I didn’t have a bad day today just that it was off somehow. I’m thankful that tomorrow is a new day. Today I’m laying my sober head on my pillow knowing my heart is healing as my mind is racing. I won’t drink because I don’t drink & I’m committed to my healing journey.