Of course my friendā:metal:t3:
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Good stuff. Step 4 was huge for me! I feel like I constantly revisit this step. Find someone you really like and trust for step 5.
Good luck, you are doing the good work!
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Hell yeah thatās whatās up! Iām proud and happy for you love how thereās more people doing this thing. Stay strong and blessed in recovery 
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Thank butterfly appreciate that
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Congratulations on youāre 10 months Twizzle. Do it Ah scared man fuck it. That anxiety is just the disease keeping you from the freedom you deserve. As was told to me donāt let the process punk you out the promises. Find a sponsor that fits you and build on that relationship. I promise you you will not regret the decision to work the steps. Iām very proud of you twizzle for making meetings and all youāre accomplishments. Donāt worry about the past the future is youāres Iām rootin for you 
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Thank you yes I love and trust my sponsor so blessed to have him in my life and be comfortable enough to do a step 5 in time
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Thank you
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Thank you so much for the encouragement and support it means so much to hear this, even though were on other side of the world the love and care is so nice thank you. . Iām rooting for you too!
So proud of you, watching your journey your doing amazing!
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Lol, not everyone is excited for this one. Good on ya, mate!
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Lol thank you
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Congratulations on your journey and how far you have come. Glad to see you working the steps. ODAAT keep pushing forward.
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Hows your 4th step going?
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@Cjp I was just thinking the same thing, and thinking about @Jftself as hadnt seen you here, I may have missed a post but was just comin to check on you.
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@Twizzlers @Cjp Hey welp unfortunately not well as of yesterday Im stopping my N.A. program. I was doing great on it then my sponsor said he felt I was goin to fast so I became unmotivated and stopped. I built a resentment towards him on something else and I just became uninterested in the program all together. Anyways 5 days ago I relapsed on Meth and was going to take a dirty 90 day chip but my conscience wouldnāt let me itās all so my mom will not find out or else I will be kicked out. I followed my sponsors suggestion to tell her about my first relapse she didnāt talk to me for a month before that I hadnāt talked to her for a year while I was in my addiction. Anyways I came up with a way to start my clean date over by telling her and her husband that I was going to start drinking again. My plan was to drink a beer in front of her so that she knew that my clean time would start over at that point but I still havenāt even done that because I thought hard about everything and I really donāt want to drink or you still. I told my sponsor yesterday about all of this he told me regardless of getting kicked out and losing the car to go to work I need to tell her and be honest. I get it itās an honest program but Iām not going to put myself in a situation where Iām not going to have anywhere to live or not have a car to go to work until mine gets fixed. He was upset and told me well I donāt know how Iām going to help you all I know is the program and you donāt want to follow directions. So I told him that N.A. isnāt going to keep a roof over my head or a car to get to work so Iām going to have to do what I have to do. He told me he doesnāt leave his sponsys his sponsys leave him and I chose to leave him when I relapsed. So I asked him if heāll still be my sponsor he said yes but he said he doesnāt know how heās going to help me. In the end I said quit beating around the bush if you donāt want to be my sponsor then Iāll go on my way. He repeated what he said about he doesnāt know how heās going to help me so I just said all right well Iām just goin to move on. In the end heās right Iām not being honest therefore I donāt see any point in continuing the narcotics Anonymous program. In the meantime Iām still going to stay clean Iām still going to keep in contact with my higher power and do my best to work steps one two and three in my life even though I wonāt be working the program like I used to. I feel at peace Iām not angry Iām not hurt Iām just going to do my thing and Iām not worried. Thank you guys for your concern though I will be sticking around this forum so Iām not going anywhere.
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Iām really sorry to hear this 
I think you know yourself and if your homeless this is all going to affect your mental health and wellbeing most likely pushing you back in the direction of addiction.
This is a tough one.
If I was you, i would remember you kept honest to the program and your mum and dad cant keep you sober, weather they kick you out or let you stay only you can do that. But you have been honest with the people who are keeping you sober.
I guess the worry would be if you lie to your parents then it could open up the door to more lies and relapse.
I think you should speak with your sponsor calmly and tell him you have been honest but telling your parents is going to do you harm and you dont want to be an addict.
Maybe when you have another monthe or two sober you can tell them?
I honestly dont know what the right or wrong thing here is except that you stay sober now.
Iām so glad your here and spoke about this.
If you know 100% your kicked out explain to your sponsor that your only end up in addicts houses sofa surfing, you want to stick to the programme and its about you not your parents. Tell him you want his support and you have thought really hard about how this will go if you tell them, and how this will go of you arent in the programme.
I hope your okay xx Iām here for you okay
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Good because we are here for you 
And stay on track your right this is what you must do, and you can do, you are doing.
Iām really proud how far you come and although a set back popped up your sticking with it, Iām happy to hear this.
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Please let me know how your doing 
keep checking in okay, thatās what we are here for especially when its rough and tough you lean on us okay. Thinking of you.
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Thank you I appreciate the support. He already told me to go to sober living and get honest. In the end I understand where he is coming from itās just not the best decision for me at this moment Iām not trying to live with a bunch of randoms. Iām just gonna take it one day at a time and not give up. Thereās plenty of people out there who stay clean/sober without working a program sure I may not reap the benefits of all the 12 steps, some may say itās not a great idea, but I still feel good and hopeful and not giving up. Ttyl I gotta get back to work 
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Just remember that your best thinking got you into this miss so itās definitely not going to get you out of it. It might be wise to follow the advice of people who have gotten, and more importantly, stayed sober.
Sober living was the one thing I said I would absolutely never do. Well, going to sober living was one of the best things I actually did for my sobriety,
Unfortunately I had to cross off all the not yets off my list before I realized my way wasnāt working. Which meant losing my job, relationships and housing. I hope you donāt have to follow in my path to come to the same realization. But if you do thereās still a way out.
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Glad your here!
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