I’m sorry you feel like you’re struggling with life as it is now. It can sound trite at times, but a gratitude practice really helps me reframe my thinking from looking at all the negative in my life to seeing not only what is going right, but also to start finding value in the trials that life puts me through. This article is worth a read. A deliberate and methodical daily gratitude practice has made all the different to my attitude and perspective in my recovery. Well done on working your program and your 68 days.
You might consider checking out this thread, if you’re so inclined.