I’ll stop the gabapentin today , I think I’ve been Taking it for about four days for the rls…
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Are theses drugs you having to buy off the streets BC that’s putting you in a mega vunrable situation you have to go through not over there’s no easy way out sweet I do understand what your going thur, also pls pls pls stop the gabvapentin you will prolong everything with them dirty fuckers and will have to withdraw from them aswl and there as bad as subutex and methadone I know BC iv e just done a detox off them it will hell my aniexty was so bad I couldn’t catch my breath and I’ve. Got a massive pain tolerance it was no joke.
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You are fucking amazing. DO NOT STOP NOW.
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I haven’t showered in 3 days … I look like I’m dying too… everything ur saying is everything I’m feeling…that’s seriously fucking crazy that u said that bc I thought about calling the dopeman when I woke up this morning bc my aches and pains are so bad and for some reason didn’t . I know it’s bc I truly want off this shit.
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I’m trying so hard but I feel like I’m dying !! I’m gona keep going bc I need to but it’s so hard knowing there’s something out there that will take me off sick but it’s just out of reach… I can’t even get out of bed and it’s been like 3 days since I could even get up to shower… it’s really bad and I can’t stop crying.
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Your a badass warrior keep fighting for your freedom
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The gabapentin is an old prescription I had from about a year ago… they even expired last month . I was buying the subs off the street from the same person for about 4 years . Before that it was buying opiates… got on to the subs to stay off the opiates and it just spiraled out out control… they contained the sickness and the cravings… it was like I found a miracle drug. It turned out to be the devil in disguise.
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I’m trying so hard…. This is the worst pain I’ve ever felt… even worse than opiate withdrawl.
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I started taking opiates with my little sister … she was 2 years younger than me … we were working at gentlemen’s club and the shit was everywhere .we could get it so easily … then my sister overdosed and died in 2016… she was my best friend… and when I lost her, I really lost myself too.
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You’re doing awesome.
It fucking sucks, just have faith in knowing it will stop , all that pain will go away and you don’t ever have to feel like this again. And you will be free from the clutches of that shit. Eventually you are going to get your freedom and that is worth all this pain. This pain is temporary and once you get through it you are going to have a beautiful life with your kids. You are so strong even though you feel like you just want to give up. You can get through this just like the people telling their stories to you on this thread,
you can do it just like they did. You can have the freedom too.
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I never used needles just took pills and when my sister moved on to the heroin i had to ask her to leave my house bc she was nodding out with needles in her arm and I was scared bc I didn’t want to raise my child in an atmosphere like that… my dad found her dead in a hotel room not too long after. I have so much guilt for asking her to leave . I think I stayed on the shit so long to numb my pain and now it’s all coming out at once and I can’t stop crying. Im in a really bad way .
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I’m sorry to hear abkut your sister, yes we numb all our pain to escape from Our own selves, but your sister woukd want you to have a happy healthy life, keep going sweet
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@Erijade I have no experience with this but read your commented and wanted to jump on to say you are fucking amazing! I have no idea what pain you’re in but it sounds terrible. Going through this you are showing you really can get through anything! I know there’s still a way to go from reading the comments from the others above but I hope the worst is over for you soon and you get to enjoy all the amazing things a life free from addiction has to offer 
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The pain you’re going through will be so worth it. Every minute of it is a minute closer to freedom. I went through fentanyl withdrawal one time and know how relentless this torture is… but it does pass…no matter how bad it gets its really worth it. You ARE breaking free. Loads of love. Keep going!
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The end is near, I would never advise another substitute but you might wanna check in with your doctor and then from out tomorrow you have another help or support. At 7 days the days should go be better from now
Hit soup, veggies, and extra vitamines. Just hang in.
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I don’t know if it’s bc I’m so emotional from the withdrawls or bc ur post was so kind hearted and sweet , but Ur post made me cry !! Thanks for having so much faith in me…I’m gona go all the way.im gona get sober . I’m staying strong…even as weak as I feel 
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Sup then atm ? What are you doing?
Btw, extended emotions you should embrace in the fullest. Part of the new trip starting
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I was up all night… I’m watching shameless reruns and in a cold sweat lol. I feel like death .
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Hey sweet just checking In to let you know your still a warrior:muscle:
so much freedom and feels to come. Xx are you working any sort of program or considering working a program. Whilst your awake all night there’s 24/7 narcotic anonymous so you can listen to other ppls experience strgth and hope, it just a suggestion but I think it could do you the world of good mentally.
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I really want to do a program. There’s a few in my area that I kno about . Lol but between us, my first goal is to just get to the point where I don’t feel like I’m dying and then find a meeting.
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