Spent most of the day reflecting inwards and doing a lot of meditating. 
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To stay sober tonight, I committed carb-icide 
Not an ideal way of handling it, but I was so close tonight to drinking due to stress coming at me from all angles.
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Hey - you are protecting your sobriety at all costs. Im so sorry about all the stress. Are you able to do any breathing excercises, meditation or take a hot bath and listen to some soothing music? May help curb some of that stress.
Any updates on your son? Very proud of you for not turning to alcohol. Odaat
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Thanks Jaz, you’re always there for us all. I’m so grateful 
My son is going to be referred to a urologist due to the growth that was found, and will have to wait to be given a date.
We found out we can’t borrow quite as much money as we would like on account of my husband being a guarantor for his mum’s house. So that greatly hampers our house buying power.
My second eldest quit a job he just started (long story)
There are a good few more niggling stresses…
But yes, I held back from drinking. I made myself visualise feeling toxic and tired tomorrow, how much I would regret it. It worked, but I still needed to de-stress. Soooo the carbs came out 
Thanks for replying, as always I’m over 26 days now x
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My goodness love - that is a lot of stresses for sure. Take carbs over drinking any day.
Great on you to visualize the after effects of drinking to deter yourself. Here any time you need to destress or vent.
It must be last for you - try to get some rest.
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I preached about sobriety to a friend who is an active addict.
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I went to I.O.P for 3 hrs today and i try and take hour or 2 a day doing my gratitude journal and other journaling and affirmations and daily reflections. It really does make my day a lil more positive and just go by better… today was amazingly beautiful outside.
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Thats so beautiful!!! I too have found that starting my day with gratitudes and affirmations has brought a light of positivity to my life.
Another day sober in the books - yeah us!!
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Thank you sweetheart I did get some sleep. I think yesterday was harder on me because I got no sleep at all the night before. Coping abilities so much weaker when I’m tired and teary.
Today is a new day, and I’m feeling more positive.
Thank you for being you Jaz 
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Keeping busy, but giving myself permission to take breaks and rest is key. It’s all about finding a balance.
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You’re exactly right, and you’ve inspired me to do the same. Thank you?
We need to make time for ourselves. I’m putting my foot down on this today!
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I’ve realized that I’ve been slacking on doing things to keep sober. One good thing i did last tues…was see my sister for coffee. It had been too long with covid and all. I walked jack yesterday. Odaat
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That must have been nice to catch up with your sister.
I hope your boys are being good to you
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Hi Binx, thank you for connecting with me! It was good to get out and catch up. I have 3 sons…my youngest is doing good. My older two both have addictions…like me. They have not decided to get clean. I hope the day comes. So…that gets in the way of our time together.
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No problem, it’s good to catch up 
I hope your boys do get clean Mark, I’m sure it is a worry for you. Like you, they will have to want change enough to stop what they are doing. Hopefully they will see the light sooner rather than later 
In the meantime, you need to look after yourself. My eldest two boys are 21 and 19, and despite the advice and guidance I give them, we can’t put an old head on young shoulders. Sometimes they have to make their mistakes and come to their own realisations about things. We must resist the urge to say I told you so when it happens 
I’ve two younger kids as well, they are 6 and 4 years old. I feel like I parent them with the same love, but a different approach than I did with my eldest two. I was extremely hands on with them, whereas now I guide and advise rather than interfere excessively. I can be a bit of a helicopter parent 
For our own mental health, sometimes we have to let them do what they have to, to work it all out - as much as it pains us to watch it. But life experience has to be their teacher sometimes
Do something that gives you some peace today Mark. Lord knows we need it with what we have to deal with 
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Running, Walking, TS.
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Pour le moment je suis en sevrage à l’hôpital.
Plus d’alcool depuis le 05/05 et j’ai décidé d’arrêter aussi la cigarette. Je ne fume plus depuis 4 jours.
Courage à tous.
Prendre soin de soi est important 
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Oh Binx im so glad to hear that you did finally get aome rest and today is a much better day.
I am so happy to be aling side you on this sober journey. Stay strong my friend and di know you can reach out any time.
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Hell yeah, Binx! Put your foot down! 
It feels good!
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Binx…you are right, my sons 31 and 35 will have to get to the point…where we have gotten. That is wanting to be sober. Its funny isn’t it? Just wanting to get clean is just part of it…because its still really hard to harness our drugs or alcohol. I will try to relax. Thx!!
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