Today I struggled. While talking to my spouse about normal eveyday things, you know things dealing with taking care of the house and stuff that needs to get done. I found myself getting angry over the conversation and escalated it to a point that in the back of my mind I said “I am going to have a drink today.” However I did not, I took my dog for a very long walk, listened to some music and chilled completely out.
That is awesome! For me its important to recognize when im starting to get in a not so good menatal place and then do something about it. Sounds like yoy nailed it!
Saw this selfie from one year ago pop up. I was drinking at a bar trying to feel less upset about troubles within my family. I thought I looked good in this picture that day. Now I look at this and just think I look sad. I saved this photo today as a way to stay sober. Drinking just feeds depression. I don’t ever want to go back!
Today I visited friends and had a good time at a quilt shop. Didn’t even think about drinking.
I kept busy with running errands and visiting friends. It was a good day.
I went to my first AA meeting today. I am looking forward to making it a regular thing. Grateful for the lovely welcome and the enormous support received today.
Tonight I played Zelda with my daughter and put together a Lego model with my son. I love games and I love Lego, but when drinking I never think to do those things (or remember them, anyway).
Bought some things online:computer:
Banana and peanut butter for a snack:peanuts:
Talked with one of my aunts and half-brother🗣️
Had dinner with my daughter and grandson❤️
Watched the Raiders win and go 5-5
Now ready to go ni ni💤
I’m so blessed and humbled in my life right now
Baked refined sugar free blueberry muffins… totally hit the spot
Watched so many episodes of Selling Sunsets that I’m kind of embarrassed
Ate real food
Felt comforted in my Oodie
Gave away almost 90% of my glassware to my neighbours, all the good crystal, all the Laura Ashley and Vera Wang crap. It’s all gone now and actually met five new people who were really happy to take my stuff for themselves. Felt useful and a statement.
I was at work, i cooked, i prayed, was in a meeting and enjoyed quality time with my cats.
I listening to a recovery podcast to stop drowning myself in guilt and shame.
I ate spaghetti with spinach after swiming and allowed myself to sink in the couch with candlelight in the evening.
Started writing down my commitment to stay sober again this morning.