Ibuprofen works okay. I tried it with a massage ball but I cannot find the one I was looking for so I lay down one some golf ball sized ball under my shoulder. If I close my eyes it’s a massage I need. A painful one. That’s what I would need.
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Into day 2. Resting at home which is a good decision for myself. Self-care. I might be cheating by drinking hot chocolate. Theobromine. That’s okay for me. Sun is out and I’ll head to do the grocery shopping and breathe some fresh air. I can do this.
I like these teas. They don’t contain black tea. Thank god. I hate black tea.
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Beginning of day three. Wide awake, no tiredness. Heading to work and see how that goes. I think the worst is over. I chose to take the bus and walk back after work the 1.5h. fresh air is good I think.
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Great! Keep going 
And have a nice day at work.
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Thank. I will stay strong. Coffee is free at work and not bad. I have 3 hours of virtual meetings this afternoon which will be challenging. But as we never have videos on noone will see when I fall asleep. I have real issues being concentrated. But I am positive.
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Oh virtual meetings are bad ones. Even with coffee i start to melt like an ice cream in 30 minutes.
Just remember to mumble something if you’re asked a question 
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I have to say that I am pretty surprised that I am not tired. I am awake. This time is so much better than my last attempts. So I’ll take it. Not feeling tired at work neither in the afternoon. No fucking headaches creeping up my right scapula towards my right frontal lobe. I had it on day 2 but one ibu did the trick. I took a ibuntoday but for female fucking cramps. Overall, well I am very surprised.
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Day 5 here. Still strong. From time to time a thought rises of having just one 
like opening the door. It wouldn’t hurt anyone. It would hurt of course. Sneaky bitches these thoughts. 
Oh no, I have to stop posting as I am not allowed anymore. Anyway, still day 5 and I made it through a bad possible scenario: having someone explain me something, listening and watching in a overheated office without air. 
My glycemia was already low and I didn’t have anything to get it up. Then day 2 of menstruation and I really feel low. It’s okay. I will rest. The most important for me really atm is not to throw away the last 4 days, starting again and again. I read this everyday. Starting again and again, being in an awful cycle of withdrawal symptoms. No to this. Slowly working on thinking of a warm tea as a good drink rather than a bad replacement of a beloved coffee.
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You are doing so great! Keep going! You can do this!
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Had some familiar headaches creeping up last evening. Hmm, so I am really looking forward to the Thai massage I booked some weeks ago.
Today some tiredness hit me. I wanted to do another workout but my body was still sore from yesterday. I had a short walk just right before the weather changed from okayish to awful. I’ll accept it. Happy I had a nice long call with a good friend. This coffee thing is really difficult. But you all know this. Baby steps.
My friend asked me if I wanted to quit for good. I said, I don’t want to do this again and again. Certainly not. I can say that really the worst is the habit and the pains in my body. But it’ll get better, I believe in this.
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Today was not so good. Headache, tight neck and heavy tiredness. Is it a late withdrawal. I have no idea. I am glad it began just now. I don’t want to throw away the whole week. I don’t want to give up now.
I had a wonderful Thai Massage and booked another appointment in a month. I think it’s a good self-care present for myself. My former psy proposed me this some years ago when I was craving human contact. Sound crazy. Not erotical in any way. But contact is soothing and healing so I do this.
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You made it one week! Just keep your eye on the prize!
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I have to work on my sleep. Not getting more than 6 hours. Need to drink less in the evening so I won’t get up during the night.
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Rough phase. You got this 
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I am doing better. Guess it’s the caffeine in the cacao powder. 
Is there anyone else with me on this journey?
What I noticed although I don’t sleep long I am not so crushing tired in the afternoon. It’s completely different feeling. I am a lot more focused I have the impression.
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I don’t know if I failed. It certainly feels this way. I replaced all the caffeine with hot chocolate. It doesn’t make it better that I read about the stimulants in cacao. I really need to stop it. I mean really. I didn’t think I was so fucking sensitive to this. Because when I felt so awfully was when I didn’t have hot chocolate for two days or so. So, I will have to crash. Currently I sleep like 5 to 6 hours which is awful. I am not dead tired (hot chocolate) but the days are so long when you get up at 3 am and can’t start working before 6 am. Getting up at 3 am doesn’t mean that I am fit. My eyes just open and I start to think and then here we go. Me sucks.
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Might take some time before your natural sleep cycle takes over. I remember when i was about 4 months alcohol free i started to wake up at 4 am, it was horrible. Something to do with brain chemistry re-organising maybe? Don’t beat yourself up. Just make adjustment and a new plan 
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We are almost sober buddies. I always wanted to have a sober buddy. 
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Are we!? Forgive me and my damaged brain. I really have a memory loss about some fellows here (and many other things…). Its so awkward 
Gonna go through a radiation therapy next week so maybe that goes for an excuse 
How many days do you have?
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