Ok, I poured out the wine I had left. I’m really starting over today. I’m going to need your help. 
Sorry I’ve been failing at this. I gave up again but I can’t continue like that. I have to stop. Here we go again. Day 1.
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Awesome! I hope you can feel some pride in yourself for taking that step to pour it out and declare your intention. That’s no small feat. I know that those have been moments when I’ve felt low, and some shame and definitely not proud of myself, but you can try to set those feelings aside and focus on what you’re doing right in this moment. I’m proud of you, and you can feel that pride for yourself, too! Get it, girl!
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And it’s okay to apologize to yourself, but no need to apologize to anyone here. Just keep focused on why you’re doing this and move onward. You can do this.
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You go girl!
We’ll be here for you night and day
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It sounds like you have reached a point of clarity, that’s a great achievement! For some of us the counter is a crucial reminder of our progress, for me it reminds me of what I am doing and why and spurs me onward. But I can see how for you it could feel like too much pressure and actually counteract the feelings of being in the moment with yourself and taking things a moment or day at a time maintaining sobriety. The message I get over and over from reading other people’s posts is that whatever works for you is what matters, and it sounds like you’ve found what will work for you! The fact that you share it here is important because others can read and try it for themselves (it sounds like your comments have already resonated for others). So thanks for sharing! I am so glad you came to the understanding that you do not need to compare yourself to others in a way that could bring you down, it’s counter productive. I’m happy for you! I hope your new perspective keeps working for you.
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I agree! No apologies what so ever!
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Thank you!
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Thank you dear
Im right here my dear
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I also like the approach @Marisim. So far this month I’ve had 17 days without a drink, and 0 big binges. Comparing only to my past behaviour, and particularly given everything that’s been going on, that’s progress. Celebrate your personal wins!
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My husband is more likely to have 2-3 drinks at the end of a work day (a couple times a week), and maybe a few more on a weekend evening. He doesnt drink enough to get anything more than a mild headache (if anything), hangovers are rare for him.
Me on the other hand - 1-2 drinks a couple days through the week but more likely to binge on a Friday. Friday moreso than a Saturday because I am susceptible to having a headache linger for the 2nd day. I have a handful of doozy hangovers through the year. February 28 I promised myself that would be the last one.
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That said, my binges were coming closer together and I was tending to drink more through the week than was typical for myself - was becoming a slippery slope… But yeah, wanting to try and explore 100% sobriety.
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Okay. I hope it doesnt affect you that his drinking dear
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And I made it!!! Good night all!
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Hey Love. Wel… I am sober… that is about it I beleive 
struggling with the pain, the attacks and the choices I need to make about the dog and future. I realy try to make it one day at the time now. that is the upside from it all. if I stress anything I want to self destruct by whatever bad behaviour. so now I try and take a walk in dunes with the dog and enjoy early morning and enjoy the sunrise. It is such an easy thought to let the the thought of just 1d… How are you? ready for another day working from home? look us up when overwhelmed!
You go lady! we are all here! It might take some time. that is ok. I realise every time I feel I keep coming back here and it is gently getting to be my go to. I am learning to trust in this, maybe like a part of my higher power: the universal love. Showing the struggle together being comfortable with the uncomfortable in our lives. the mesy stuff and the doubts. It is ‘the other side’ of love. it all has a place to land here. hope you are doing fine! the whole world is in distress so be gentle on yourself with the stress of the corona, kids at home. you are doing great!
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It is this slippery slope that fools me also every time. I would be ok with only a little. and outdoors I can easily. but once the oportunity is there for the mind to binge… bam. at that kills my body. litteraly. (in my case the boulimic eating binges is the worst) but got the figures from the hospital. it is proven now that parts of my body are dying of and will not come back) And guess what I wanted to do when I heard that… crazy right?
So I cold turkey does not work. stressing over it makes it worse for me. Easy does it. being consious and making the effort every single day is then all I can do. thank you all for sharing on this.
@Marisim @RosaCanDo @SoulSearcher
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Today is 3 weeks and I can hardly believe it. The first two were definitely the hardest, though I know things can change as I’ve read people’s stories about milestones in particular. For me I’ve thought a bit about the 30 day mark, but I might try the idea some of you have talked about of reflecting on the month of March as a whole as we enter April and just focusing on the day I’m in as opposed to anything else. I had a really heavy craving on Friday because we had pizza and of course pizza and beer go together, at least in my life they have. But I made it through with my mocktail. I’ve been drinking lime seltzer with a splash of fruit juice and extra lime. I love it and I love the ceremony around mixing my concoction. Sometimes it orange, cranberry, and lately my favorite is a lower sugar “lite” raspberry lemonade.
Anyway, before I ramble on (I’ve missed writing on here lately), I’m here with you all and hope we all continue taking it day by day and placing some value on our small and big accomplishments. We are each absolutely deserving of happiness and peace. Sending 
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Good to hear from you! I hope you have a good night sleep!
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