Yes! welcome!! How did you get through the first night?
If anybody must knowā¦ Iām dressed like a bee today 
. Yellow sweater, yellow tights and a blue skirt. I felt like it and find it funnyā¦
Maybe thatās a good sign because I donāt worry about what anybody thinks about my outfit.
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realy good! just buzzing throught the day! 
have a good day at work
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wow. so much to read here after I woke up. I had a good night and a good sleep. but only 1 minutes after waking up feeling anger. and that is going to be a big puzzle for me. my dog peed in the house, she only does it when she has to sleep alone. but also shred to pieces my favorite books. And I see myself geting so angry for not being able to control it, which ticks on a feeling of not being able to do stuff. so low self esteem. It is such an overwhelming ridiculous pattern that I almost do not think about looking at it. But there is my work I guess. I never had these anger issues, but it is time to get to know them. because the dog is great, and getting angry does not make it ok. I get into this black and white thinking, having to give away the dog, never being good enoughā¦ and so onā¦ do you recognise this
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I am a yoga teacher now that I can not work anymore. Yoga saved my life a few times and firts I hated it. the fancy pants fit girls in amsterdam, not so good for the self esteem hahaha. but I just keeop coming back to it. Unfortunately I had to stop teaching now for 2 weeks because of my health mybe get back to it asap. also with a few days under my belt might be a good start to get back to it and also āwrokā on the extra pounds
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I like your approach 
Im the lady i red today 
I recognize the anger problems but when i was sober 40 days they went away. I got nearly mad about anything.
Excatly yoga is great. Do you in the end of the lessons have 10-15 min where you do a body scan and throw away thoughts kind of thing ?
Half hour shy of day 3
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That might be a positive outlook for meā¦ I want to transform that feeling, it is so uncomfortable and unproductive. Did you do something to deal with it or did it just go away by intself.
yes I do. either a body scan, or a silent savasana or I read a poem, going with the theme. or I give a mini massage with oils. A bit of tlc!
Welcome here Joyce. 3 days in like most of us! How are you holding on so far?
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Hi! March 1st here, great thread. Can I join
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Hello Betty, Welcome here and in this conversation! @Marisim initiated this thread. realy great. it helps me more in being acountable to my recovery since it is not easy to hide in the big group and go unseen
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Welcome to forums! How are you today?
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Good morning everyone!! I made it!! After my heart attack last night with the smoke detector I finally detector backup sleep after an hour. Got my workout in this morning and Iām ready to make smart choices!!
I ordered a book last night. I was wondering if anyone would want to join me? Itās called the alcohol experiment by annie grace. Itās a 30 day book that goes through why and how we are effected by alcohol.
@Journey1 Right now coffee, water, and diet soda. I know diet soda is SO bad for you but it is helping me not to drink alcohol. And look into the BOD, all the workouts online, stream anytime. I love it.
@Marisim Yay for sleep!! And I also get distracted here tooā¦ I look up and 20 minutes have gone by!! And dress how you want girl!! Rock your bee-utiful outfit!!
@Maria Oh no!! I hate to hear your dog did that!! Right now youāre emotions are probably a little more extreme trying to detox. Donāt give away puppers yet. Also, I think my biggest dog ate a stick of butter last nightā¦
@AnonymousD I think a 30 day sounds great!! Iām in!
@CHASING_Joy @Betty welcome!! Way to go for 3 days! Keep it up!!
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I am in for the 30 days, would love to hear more.
I am having a tough time at moment. Due to my nerve condition I fainted a few times and realy hurt myself now. Decided to buy a bench for the dog to try and drive my car of the road. Confronted again with fact that I need help but I have no one. People always think I manage because I am super woman or soā¦ but even if I scream out for helpā¦ somehow they do not want to see it. So now I think I need to let the dog go. I can not project my frustrations on a dog that is already damaged in early life. You knowā¦ this realy sucks. I so angry with myself and feel so worthless. Once I had it all, and then I got sick and lost everything over time and all things I try to do to get out there fails because I am already to week. In you head you stay a healthy girl so much longer before accepting life has changed. And then there is this one thing that is always there for youā¦ the bottleā¦ a situation in which I will never win.
Sorry to ramble on ā¦ I hardly dare to share anymore because by doing so I lost all friends I had. Weakness does not fit to their image of me
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Actually i didnt do that much other than recognize it and allow it to be there. Or i wrote it down, so my mind not kept thinking of it and i became more angry.
Angry is not a feeling i had allowed myself to feel ever before so it was new to me. I have always thought it was wrong to be angry, but together with my former psychologist i learned that it was okay and allowed my body to feel it.
Regarding the body scan think we did at yoga today i experienced something strange. Will laying there and relaxing and listening to my body tears just started to run out of my eyes. You know not hysterical crying or anything, it was very silent. Have you heard about that happening before or experienced it yourself? I was just wondering what it was about really.
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Welcome @Betty and @CHASING_Joy
Of course, you can! The more, the merrier :). Welcome to our little group!
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I feel you Maria and i can relate to the last part with being affraid of sharing to much because i have lost all my friends too except two. But here you can share away. You wont loose us.
Sorry to hear about the fainting - got any diagnozis from the doctor? And i think you can keep the dog if you learn to let your frustration out elsewhere like writing it down. Because it seems like the dog gives you alot of good walks and lifequality which is important to.
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