My name is Trevor and I’m an alcoholic and a drug addict. I’m creating this thread to journal about my recovery, my past, and anything I might feel like posting or talking about. Some of the things I talk about on this thread might be pretty heavy but the overall theme of this thread is positivity and gratefulness. I welcome anybody to post or join into conversation if they would like. Even if it’s not related or a different subject. If anybody reaches out I will try my best to respond and participate. I’m doing this for many reasons mostly for having a time capsule of sorts And also my experience strength and hope might help somebody.
A little bit of my story…
As of today 4/8/25 I have 407 days sober from all mind altering substances and alcohol. It’s taken a lot of hard work to get to this point. And a ridiculous amount of failed attempts over the years. But looking back my past attempts at sobriety Was me trying to find a way to manipulate my drug and alcohol use and find a way to successfully pull it off without burning my life to the ground. But every single time I relapsed the same results happened or even worse. I would tell my family and friends what they wanted to hear. I would have one foot in AA And the other foot headed towards relapse. I would save some money up and then I would use any number of excuses to relapse and disappear Off the face of the Earth.
My first time going to medical detox and realizing my drinking and drug use was a problem was in 2014. In the last 11 years I have absolutely lost track of medical detox trips, hospitalizations, rehabs, sober livings, and I have no clue how many times I’ve been in the back of an ambulance. Cunning baffling and powerful! My disease is so powerful that it tells me that maybe it wasn’t that bad. Realistically I have no clue how I’m still alive right now. But I believe my higher power has a plan for me. Most likely to help people and to make something of my life.
In the last 407 days I’ve learned how to live without drugs and alcohol and be content and feel peace. I’m not saying every day is perfect and I don’t have problems but I haven’t had one bad day in 407 days. I’ve had a bad few hours or bad moments but I have the tools to restart my day at any time. I have a sponsor and I continue to follow his suggestions. I have completed the steps of Alcoholics Anonymous and now I’m practicing them in all my affairs. I go to at least four meetings a week. I have a home group. I call at least three people a day in my net work. I regularly go out to eat with people from AA. Alcoholics Anonymous has helped me deal with my past, come to terms with who I really am, and learn how to exist in this world sober. And most importantly to not be alone and have good sober people in my life.
Outside of AA Some things that help me stay sober is riding my bike around the city, going to the skate park, the gym, recording and playing music, journaling and writing, spending time with family and friends outside of AA… Basically healthy positive activity. If I don’t have to be inside I’m definitely outside.
I currently work as a dishwasher at a American Italian restaurant. My manager is five years sober and the owner and the rest of the management are very supportive of my recovery and I’m able to be very open and honest on a daily basis. Sometimes I think about leaving to get a different job but then I’m reminded to think about why I took this job in the first place. It’s a 10 minute walk from my apartment, supportive environment, good pay, all morning shifts and set schedule, and opportunity to advance.
I’m so incredibly grateful for my current life and I’m looking towards the future. I’m not where I am because of doing this by myself. It’s thanks to my sponsor, my recovery net work, AA, my family, and the Talking sober community. I’m where I’m at because I surrendered And I was willing to do something different.
Like I said in the beginning I’m looking forward to having this thread so that I can post just about anything I feel like as long as I feel it’s not disrespectful or could effect Somebody’s sobriety. I’m going to be honest and not hold back. There will be stories from the past, reflections, Simple writings about my day, or even things that are random.
Life is good And it’s only going continue to get better if I continue to keep my recovery first and before everything else.
Thank you for reading.
-Trevor