For what it’s worth: I think you did the right thing. I believe he will see that in time.
In the meantime - he’s sad. You’re sad too. Be sad together. You have that in common.
You’re a good person Jenn and you deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self. 
We are being sad together. It just sucks to be at different areas of the sadness. He has 1 more graveyard and then some days off. I’m hoping some time off work will help with acceptance.
I hope so too. I’m thinking of you guys. Take care
Back in my normal thread. Feeling better. The hubs had a few moments today that seemed like steps in his grief. I still get sad but am doing decent when I don’t take on his grief also. He just sent me a thank you text because I’ve been staying up to talk to him while he is at work. Tomorrow I’m gonna do a 5 mile run to celebrate my 5 months. I would have felt like shit if I drank on a milestone day. I really am thankful I found this forum.
Waiting at the shoulder doctor to hopefully be cleared for some pt. I know I won’t have all the restrictions lifted but I’m hoping for a decent amount to be. I mostly just want to start the rehab so I can get back to weights. It still feels stiff but I feel ready to move forward. The hubs said I’ll get good news just probably not all that I want which sounds accurate
Well doc said I’m healing well but he won’t let me push so I have to wait 2 weeks for physical therapy. Some restrictions were lifted but still no weight lifting and no lifting my arm above my head. So basically the same thing I’ve been doing. Oh and I said “when I’m running it feels like something is shifting in there” 1) he was like wait your running 
(It’s more like a jog but yea)
2) apparently it’s the pin in my clavicle that is moving
So I got an A for healing but a no for pt for now.
Progress… progress…
Things are going good here. I was able to snag a 4 day weekend so this will be nice. The hubs is in a good place or at least seems that way. The house has a calm and quiet feeling. I feel bad to admit I enjoy it. It’s an unusual feeling but I suppose the new norm. We have started talking about future plans because now we can live our life. It feels exciting and I’m ready to go on a vacation. We haven’t gone on a stay away vacation in 6 years because of the special situation we had with the dogs. Anywho, I’m off to do stuff and things. Y’all have a great day! 
That’s wonderful! Happy for you Jenn
Today’s our 7 year wedding anniversary and it was a good day. The hubs is terrible with gifts, like just doesn’t do them except for Christmas and my birthday. I never really want anything just a card or a bouquet of flowers would be nice. For me it really is just the thought that makes me happy. I’m working on my acceptance of this because for the longest time I would basically force him with a guilt trip or we got into arguments because of the lack of thought. I know he loves me and deep down I also know that’s what matters. But some dang flowers would have been nice lol
Hugs sweetie!
Happy anniversary Jenn!!
Awww thanks guys!! 
The day that I dread is 4 days away. I’m off that day and wish I was working. It’s the day my mom passed away 8 years ago. I hated everyone in the beginning when they just kept saying it would get better. It has, but I’ll never be able to fill that hole. I know she is proud of me for where I am and what I have accomplished. She was always the most supportive mom, even if it was a bad idea. She would push me to be the best and help me anytime with anything. We fought a lot when I was a teen and my dad left. We were both really angry and took it out on each other. I wasted a lot of time in my early 20s with meth and I didn’t see her nearly the amount I should. I just am missing her like always. Just sometimes it’s more on the surface. Calling her I think is what I miss the most, hearing her loving wonderfully sweet voice. Well I’m crying. Anyways this is what I feel today
That is the most precious thing. The voice - we want to hear the voice. I feel that way about my dad: I identify with him; I feel bonded to him. When I hear his voice I feel I am coming home. It’s the voice of home.
It’s a heavy weight, this emotional weight. However, I am sure you are capable of walking through that day. You probably already know that but it’s always nice to hear others see it too.
Do you have somewhere you can go to memorialize her? Rituals of remembrance are part of what keeps our history and our important people and memories with us. Can you visit a favourite place, a favourite activity? In her honour?
She has a spot in the China cabinet I inherited from my grandpa. I talk to her regularly and I know I’ll keep myself busy. Just normally drinking is in the day somewhere
Ah! Diet Coke. I want that on my memorial too 
She loved Diet Coke and white tigers! There are a few statues in there and the flowers I dried out from her memorial.
