I did think of getting him placed on a 72 hour hold for a pysch evaluation but I’m not sure how to go about that or if it would even be helpful. Thank you for that information. I’ll try to see if I can find something on google and thank you very much for the hugs. They are much needed. I’m having a girl day tomorrow with my friend. I think she is just trying to occupy my mind and I’ll take it
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Jen, I’m sorry you are feeling shitty. A majority of my concern lies with your husband. Him verbalizing these thoughts is a big deal. He needs inpatient treatment. A 72 hour hold is exactly what you should be thinking then inpatient. I went to Sierra Tucson way back in 2013. Sending prayers your way.
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This will be my last post for a while. I can’t guarantee sobriety so I am not going to sit here and say oh wo is me and trigger someone else. I called my husband about 20 times last night with no answer and multiple texts. He is finally on his way home today and called me. He said he is basically coming home to say his goodbyes to his family and then he will kill himself. I left my friends house after only an hr because I feel so broken and helpless and just don’t want to people today. Thank you to who have reached out. I just can’t sit here and wait for my husband to kill himself sober
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I am very sorry for you Jen! I can only imagine how sad, frustrated, empty, numb, dead you must feel. Sober is the only way to handle every possible situation! Stay with us here.
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I’m very sorry Jen. Sober is the only way, you need to be sober now more than ever for your kids. We’re here for you
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Hang with us Jenn. We are here for each other. Good times and very bad ones too. Especially those I’d say. I feel your husband needs help too right now too. Professional help. Big big hugs.
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Don’t even worry about triggering someone else Jenn. This is your own thread! We’re here for you!! Stay sober so you have a clear head for yourself and your husband. Drinking will not help anything and will only end up making you more anxious.
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Call 911 and talk to them. He is threatening to kill himself and could also be a harm to others. You feel helpless. Let someone help you who is trained to do the right thing for you and for your husband. Please do not drink.
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Sending prayers to you all. 
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Aww Jen. I’m so sad to read all this shit that is going on in your world right now. I cannot imagine how awful you must feel. It sounds like you’re in a really shitty place and you’re hurting big time. You’ve always had a special spot in my heart here on TS for some reason. Maybe because I just think you’re a pretty cool person. And you’re smart and kind. You will be in my prayers. You and your husband. Don’t worry about God I’m close enough to God for the both of us. I’ll be praying my ass off for you both. I truly hope to meet up with you again on here and continue sharing our little bits of our journey together.
Oh and by the way. None of us fucking got this. If we did. We wouldn’t be here.
My PM is always open.
And I can listen to you as well if you ever want to reach out.
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This thread was horrifying to read at the end! I’m so sorry all this shit is going down. Jen, you gotta be sober if you want to have a chance to stay sane through this. I hope you come back soon. As I said in my message to you: there is hope. I hope it’s not too late for your husband. 
Hope to see you soon back here. With a good update. Hoping.
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Jen, I’m still thinking about you. You don’t have to leave just because you picked up again. We’re here to support you no matter what. I really wish you would come back and continue posting. With everything you got going on, networking is important for your own mental health. Sending you strength and love. 
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Jen, I’m just catching up on all this. You’ve overcome so much already! Please, there’s no doubt that this is a steep, steep hill on a big long run, but I believe in you, that you can get back up. We’re all here on the sidelines and want to run along with you, as much as we can…
Strength and love to you, to your husband too. 
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I haven’t left I just don’t feel right posting when I’m not sober. I am at the current moment but I drank last night and maybe again tonight or tomorrow. The only positive I found a possible therapist but I won’t know much more until the office is open Monday
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Hey Jen, I’m a psych nurse and just wanted to acknowledge how rough this situation is for u and suggest that you could call the police. If you explain to them the situation and that your husband has suicidal toughts with what seems like intent they can bring him to the ER on a section 12 (that is what it is called in Mass.). This will make it so he can’t leave the ER until he is seen by psych. They could then help him get to a locked psych setting to help keep him safe. Feel free to inbox me if you need advice or need to talk. 
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Thank you. That is good information to know. His spirits seem decent today and there isn’t any talk of suicide but I understand very well that the thoughts are still there. I’m holding out on calling 911 or the police only because of his current mood status. My post from 2 days ago he wasn’t here. He was 8 hours away and I couldn’t get ahold of him. We talked for hours last night and while I still know his mental place is unsteady I don’t feel at the moment it requires the extreme action of the 72 hour hold.
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I am glad to hear things have made a turn in a positive direction… keep reaching out. Don’t forget to take care of you.
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Jen,
I am so sorry to read about your relapse as well as everything going on in your life right now. It sounds tremendously overwhelming, and then trying to deal with it while climbing out of a drinking session just makes it ten-fold tougher.
I will say, depression does funny things to people. That talk about your life not being good enough and you not being good enough – your husband very well may not feel that way. I know that when my own depression was/is at it’s worst, there is no joy in anything. Everything is just unappealing, even the people and things we love most. Usually those things are what depression attacks the hardest. We still love them, but the bandwidth just isn’t there to express it or show it, really. That’s my own experience. It’s a matter of brain chemistry driving you away from those you love.
I hope your husband comes home soon, and that your day with your friend will give you a bit of a reprieve.
You CAN come back from this, he CAN come back from his own issues. I’m glad to read you’ve found a potential therapist, I actually reconnected with mine last week after we stopped sessions for a few months to see how I’d do. It’s nice to have that ear sometimes.
Stick around here. You know what you have to do. Although we don’t talk directly all the time, consider me an open ear if needed.
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I just want to say thank you to everyone for the continued thoughts, positive vibes and reaching out. I’m going to bed sober today. Monday’s have a special place in my heart. It always seems like a good day for a fresh start. I suppose we shall see what tomorrow has in store
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