Really proud of you, Jen. That must have been so difficult to watch him pour it down the sink but you did it. Very impressive!! Just think about how good you’ll feel in the morning.
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So proud of you!! Start racking those days back up tonight 
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That takes courage Jenn. I’m proud of you.
One day at a time 
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Woke to this beautiful sky. I didn’t set an alarm today since it’s my day off. I’m glad I woke early enough for this
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Beautiful 
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Looks like I’ll be headed to Georgia next month to help train the data entry department for a pharmacy we are opening. I’ll be there a week. I’m a bit nervous but very excited for something different
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Oooh that’s quite a trip! I’ve never been to Georgia but I’ve heard it’s quite scenic. Are you planning some sightseeing while you’re there?
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My aunts (moms sisters) live there so I’ve been quite a bit. I’ll probably do some sightseeing around the town and since they are an hr and half away I’m hoping to see them
My mom was born there. Her and my dad moved to Texas before I was born
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Maybe some time away will do you good. I look forward to hearing what you think about Georgia.
I’ve only driven thru on our way to Florida. My husband has family in Savanah so we’re hoping to make a trip there at some point.
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The number 1 thing I’ll be looking for is the boiled peanut stand on the side of the road 
I’m hoping time away will do me good also but I’m afraid that I’ll spend most of my time worried about the hubs. His appointment with the new doctor will be will I’m gone and I feel bad that I won’t be here
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That sounds fun. Looking forward to hearing about it!
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You’ll definitely find lots of boiled peanut stands. They’re everywhere.
Maybe hubs will open up if you’re not there. Fingers crossed.
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Jen - I missed your original post from almost two weeks ago. I am sad to hear of your struggle with your husband’s depression and suicidal threats. You are very smart to take them seriously. So pleased you found a therapist you got good vibes from. Having been in and out of therapy for years I know how important the right therapist is. Like the one that nodded off…hmmmm…was that on her or me? I digress. No great words of wisdom, but letting you know I am thinking of you and your husband and pushing seriously positive thoughts and feelings into the airwaves for you. I care about you! And hope you will soon take the best care of yourself. So glad you shared and are still on the forum.
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I lived in the greater Atlanta area for 10 years. Both of my sons were born there.
Fun fact…Georgia is the Peach State, but I’ve heard SC produces more. A good segue for food choices…eat the peaches, not the boiled peanuts. They are mushy!! But…I’m a Yankee by birth so perhaps a poor judge…
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Lol I love boiled peanuts! And they are the best from the stand. You can buy them in a can but those are always mushy and not the best. The ones at the stand are fresh and oh so yummy. Thank you for the positive thoughts. It has been a rough few weeks. Most days I just feel on edge and anxious. I have high hopes for the therapist and I’m really hoping that the hubs puts real effort into it. He has gone before and made an excuse after the first session.
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On my way home today this song came on and I caught a picture of this beautiful sky with the sun rays. I picked this song for mom’s memorial. It makes me cry every time I hear it but today coupled with the sky I almost felt a calming effect. I am still struggling with the motivation to continue to be sober but I made it through another day and I feel as though she is proud I haven’t given up.
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She’s with you Jenn - always.
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So are we, Jen. 
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Feeling really bleh today and lonely. The hubs is working all of his time since he has been back because he said he is just trying to fill his time. I’m trying to be understanding that he needs to do this for him. Edit: I am being understanding. I’m just feeling lonely the the process.
He has gone in to work early and stayed late the past 4 days and he is suppose to be off today but went to work. I’m really trying to not be in my feelings because I know it isn’t about me but it doesn’t make me feel less bleh
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That is hard. Especially when you’re in an anxious place and need reassurance (it sounds like you might be in that space now).
Have you ever heard of attachment theory? There are basically three types of attachment styles: secure (form connections, comfortable with give and take, generally flexible to the natural ebb and flow in emotions in relationships; most people are like this); avoidant (generally seem emotionally aloof; tend to feel distant at times, want to connect but when things get emotionally close they begin to feel vulnerable and withdraw for self-protection); and anxious (need reassurance; fear abandonment or neglect). These styles are generally rooted in childhood experience.
(I’ve found that theory helpful in understanding interactions between myself and my wife. I am (predominantly) avoidant and she is (predominantly) anxious. It’s a challenging dynamic.)
I know it’s hard Jenn. You’re not alone. It can help to reach out - here of course, and also in person to friends you have where you live (or friends you keep in touch with). The hardest thing is feeling alone with these feelings 
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