Doing my checkin. Less work today, only 10 hours and it wasn’t near as busy as yesterday. I’m off tomorrow and not sure what I’m gonna do other than some grocery shopping and cooking. I’m sure I’ll work out too. I need to go do a weigh in also. 
I’m ready for Friday though because my 3 day weekend is coming and I’m gonna do some me stuff. Maybe a massage… maybe some hiking… hell maybe both! 
So a manicure also… got it
Checking in. It was a good day. I did my run this morning, went grocery shopping, set a pot roast up and went and got a manicure. It’s getting to the point again where I don’t really think about drinking and that’s nice. While grocery shopping today I passed the liquor section (not really a way around since it’s by the milk 
) with all the Christmas gift sets with alcohol and shot glasses or whatnot. I use to want those and liked when I got those gifts. I’m grateful to not want that to be a part of my life anymore.
The hubs has been really attentive the past few days and sweet. I’m appreciative but I also feel a reluctance to accept. I keep wondering if this is just for now and soon he will be back to his old ways. I know that’s the past creeping into my mind and I’m trying to be in the present but it’s hard.
Forget Christmas sets - I’m excited about the whole Christmas experience! It’s coming soon 
It sounds like you’re worried about the communication and tone between you and your husband being fragile, brittle. That’s a hard worry to have. It’s hard to feel like it’s precarious like that.
The upside to that worry, is that it suggests it’s possible for it not to be precarious. (If it wasn’t possible for it not to be that way, then why worry about it?) The question then is, what’s the next logical step?
Doing my check in. It wasn’t a terrible day. I’m a bit in my head but I think I’m just gonna head on to sleep. I’m gonna get up and do an early workout tomorrow before work. I want the endorphins to start the day off.
I’ve been doing that too this week and it feels nice!
Morning endorphins = yes!! For years when my kids were young I exercised during lunch. Then they got older and I exercised after work. Now I’m too tired to exercise after work. So…morning it is.
Jenn - sounds like your schedule changes a lot! That isn’t ideal. But, typical in your profession?
My schedule is 6-2:30 t-f and working every other weekend. I think it seems like it rotates more than it does because I work early most days and go in later and help close if they need help.
The virtual workout dude I choose was in Houston but from Jamaica!! His accent was great. Every time he said 1,2,3 it sounded like 1,2 treat! Each time I was like oh a treat
My grandparents were born in Canada and my Grampy said “tree” for “three” until he died. Thinking back, I don’t remember how he said other words with “thr”, but it had to have been the letter combination. I love accents!!
Doing my check in. No complaints from me. Got up early, did my workout, went to work (which wasn’t terrible) took the dogs for a short walk, ran, did some laundry and dishes and now relaxing before bed
Sounds like a good and productive day!!
A good day for you. Sometimes it is a relief to just have a rather uneventful day!
Checking in. Another rather uneventful day. Worked but it was sooooo slow and I cleaned the house lol I got a lot of deep cleaning done so it was productive at least. I know tomorrow will be insane because we closed early today but I’ll worry about that tomorrow.
Time to enjoy that clean house 
Checking in for the day. Took a half day at work and napped the afternoon away. Not feeling great but nothing serious. Currently watching a baking show where they are making showpieces out of chocolate. Seems very difficult! I love how creative some people are, I am not artistically inclined lol
Last night after my checkin the hubs and I got into an argument? I’m not sure that’s really the right word. Yesterday he was messaging about work and how many hours he has because of the holiday, I’m just like yea. I just don’t really know how to respond like congratulations for working… I didn’t say that. I did say something along the lines of I don’t feel like we have anything to talk about. I wasn’t doing anything but watching tv and he was working. He took it as I meant in general. Like always. He came home. I tried to apologize if what I said was rude or I guess for how he took it. He told me I don’t care about him and he understands because of everything. It’s not that I don’t care it’s I don’t know us anymore. I feel like I live with a roommate not a teammate, a partner. Maybe I have been cold and distant. Sometimes I prefer to be here alone
I’m really sorry to hear you guys are still struggling Jenn.
Do you think it’s possible that he’s using again? I know every once in a while you used to mention finding his stuff hidden in various places. I don’t want to make any assumptions or anything.
I only ask that because I remember when my drinking was the worst, my wife said the same thing to me. She felt like we were just roommates because all I cared about was drinking. I got to the point where I resigned myself to the fact that my life was just drinking at one point and I basically gave up. I see a lot of that in his behavior that you’ve told us about.
It obviously could be something totally different but I felt like I should share my 2 cents since I’ve been in your shoes 
I think anything is possible but I really don’t think that is it. He said last night he feels like he is trying so hard and I’ve checked out… That we are at the end but neither will say it. I mentioned couple therapy again because I feel like it’s the only thing to bring us back. We hardly talk and when we do it’s mostly via text when he isn’t here. When we try to have in person conversations it’s like we aren’t on the same wavelength. He is defensive or I am.
I appreciate your 2 cents.
I’m feeling a bit down and trying to just get out of bed today.