Ugh I’m sorry, that’s so rough. It definitely sounds like couples therapy would be a great idea but I know you haven’t been able to get him to go.
I feel like it’s a cop out that he’s saying you guys are at the end when he hasn’t even agreed to try couples therapy; or he agrees but then won’t go. Obviously he could be trying harder so he shouldn’t be blaming you.
Hang in there 
It wasn’t a great day but I didn’t drink so there’s that. It was an overcast rainy day most of the day here but I got to see this.
I love it when clouds are like that. The sky at dusk is so beautiful - those colours are from the universe’s paintbrush 
Another sober day is a win in my book! 
such a beautiful sunset
Checking in. Good day. Much better mental day for sure. I got a run in, got a pedicure, spent some time with the hubs. He agreed to go to a psychologist I found that does both individual and couples counseling. I’ll call tomorrow to see if they take his insurance for the individual and see when we can get in. He agreed, but he has agreed before. Only time will tell.
Glad to hear you had a constructive day (on many fronts). Happy for you Jenn
It was a good day. The endorphins I’ve had all day have been glorious! I got up early and drove out to the hiking area. The weather was really cold this morning but very soon got warm. I probably only hiked maybe 3 miles because of all the rocks and it was a bit overgrown (it’s back country, kinda expected) It was very slow going though. I really enjoyed just sitting on that rock and listening. I think that’s my favorite thing. The peace and nature sounds.
When I got home the hubs asked if the doctor called me back yet and they haven’t but I’ll call tomorrow afternoon or Wednesday if they don’t. I appreciated that he asked about it. Makes me wonder if he is serious this time.
I did a workout when I got home and now my body is pretty worn out. I’m gonna sleep like a baby that’s for sure.
Checking in. Long work day. My coworker that has been there with me forever and we run the pharmacies with ease together is out with pneumonia!!! 
Logged in early this morning and then helped them close. He said he is still feeling pretty bad so tomorrow may be the same. Meh. I was doing “inventory” and I’m pretty much done with my Christmas shopping. I only have about 3 gifts left. I started a few months ago.
I got this mouse pad the other day and I really like it. Makes me smile
Checking in. Another long work day- meh. I have some vacation time and I’m gonna take it in January. I’m really tired mentally. I thought of going for a run after work, sat down at the kitchen table and just couldn’t will myself to pick out an outfit lol
I was really craving when I got off but I ate some chocolate and took a hot shower with some 90s country blaring. I feel better and am about to pass out in the bed 
Chocolate is my go to for a sweet (safe) treat too
Where are you thinking of going in Jan?
No plans except not working lol
I admire your commitment to check in every day! I have been SO busy with the kittens I have been online so much less. I can’t imagine taking care of these little buggers while drunk. That would suck for them AND me!
Imagine that. Sounds heavenly
I think it’s becoming habit now lol I just do it when I lay down for the evening. It’s just a very public journal 
I’m always pleased to hear about your progress!
Thank you How are the you doing?
Shitty day. Work sucked and I went for a run after
Work and it didn’t help. I feel annoyed at the world. Just gonna call it a night
Very busy and in kind of in a funk. I could list the things bothering me, but why bother? This too shall pass.
Wow…I just wrote I’m in a funk and you said you had a shitty day! Must be in the stars! Let’s hope tomorrow is better.
