Hey there @bluublondi and welcome to TS. Thanks for sharing your experience. You’ve been through tough times, but I see strength and determination to begin a sober path.
What’s YOUR plan? to stay sober? Checking in daily to maintain focus #65 and Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #6 are popular threads to keep you focused and accountable. Attending meetings are also key, as doing it alone is tough.
Have a read around here. Take it ODAAT, you’ve got this!