I’ve decided im ready to give AA a go, currently on day 4 sober. again i just cant get further than a couple of weeks without feeling im in some kind of endurance test. Like a game of snakes and ladders i can get so far then false positives convince me im alright, you can drink, just be sensible, a couple of pints then leave it. That just doesnt happen. The pain in my body over the last week or so has intensified and i just cant handle it anymore. Dr has given me Thiamine to take daily, blood tests tomorrow and hopefully a referral back to neurology depending on wheter Thiamine is effective or not.
I accept the fact that i Cant drink ever again but at the same time im scared. Anyway my local AA group is saying they are ‘open’ the 1st Tuesday of each month. That Sucks as i have to wait 3 weeks. Shit happens i guess. im determined and WILL change my life.
Where are you? There are AA groups everywhere constantly. Open just means you’re allowed to attend whether you want to quit drinking or not. Closed means you should have a desire to quit drinking. It doesn’t mean it’s full. And there are AA groups online 24/7 365. You shouldn’t have to wait 3 seconds let alone 3 weeks.
Im in England. I didnt realise that as i have only recently looked for a meeting in my town. Its 2am but tomorrow i will investigate further. Thanks for the info.
Good luck! You’re making a good decision.
Absolutely a good decision! Its been so much easier to stay sober since I started going AND working the steps. Still hard obviously, but more accountability, motivation, and connection is whats really making a difference on those hard days. That, and taking it one day at a time. Even when i “dont know” if I can do AA, I can still not drink if I just think “not today, maybe tomorrow.” I wouldnt have made it to 71 days without my sponsor and my home group.
Wishing you the best!!
Hey Lee
Sorry to read it sounds like you’re struggling. AA sounds like a good plan. Too bad you don’t have more options closer where you live. Maybe you can find more options eventually.
If I might butt in. I’ve seen you around a bit. Always enjoy your posts and pics.
I was terrified thinking I can’t ever drink again. How can I possibly do that? It was frightening as all hell. But that one day at a time bullshit is really really what it’s all about. For me anyway. Those clichés we preach. They really do work. I’m not saying it’s easy. But just for today man. Early on I use to think “I’m not drinking today! And I’m probably not drinking tomorrow.” I put a little twist on it. Worked for me.
I don’t see you on the Gratitude thread. Have you thought of checking that out each and EVERY morning to start your day? It’s totally retrained my brain. There’s a great bunch of us on there. I can save you a spot. It’s been one of my strongest tool. We got so much to be grateful for when we are sober. We got fuck all when we are drinking. It’s true.
Dan started a great thread a while back.
Dans link
Give it a read if you’re willing.
And lastly. Jason Fisher told me whenever he thinks he can drink like a gentleman. He can’t. He puts on the audio version of Chapter 3 from the Big Book of AA. I use to listen to that a lot on my morning walks. Some afternoons too. Got me through some hard times.
Always around for ya mate.
Happy to help.
I’m grateful you reached out.
Maybe you could find an AA group that isn’t local. Make a day out of it.
Thank you, and congratulations you’re doing fantastic. Keep up the good work 
Eric, thank you you never fail to amaze me with your helpful advice, i see you comment so often offering support to others.
Respect.
You said you have enjoyed my posts and pictures here, well i had a notification to let me know i have been posting here for 1 year already! Thats 1 year of snakes and ladders taking one step forward and 2 steps back. Not to mention the all years prior. I truly have been going around and around in circles for years! But not anymore.
No, never done the daily gratitude but today i will start to do so. I have read posts on that thread and i can see its a useful tool. So again thank you for that suggestion.
Im yet to read the other link but today i will.
The AA youtube video was really good! I managed to listen for around 20 mins before i could stay awake no longer, but fully understood what i heard and will re listen today also.
Im ready now
And kind of excited im done with the Old me,
Lifes short and i still have plans. lol
Hi Lee im in Scotland as Jim said there will be plenty of other meetings out there in your area , here in Scotland you can phone reg office and they will pass you onto a 12 step helper and if possible come and pick you up or arrange to meet you at the meeting door and take you in ,but if you do go there will be plenty of like minded people there to shake your hand and help you . i remember my first meeting i was scared and had to sit on my hands as the Dts were bad i was coming of Drink and was a month of Ativan . i just nodded when it came to speak guy at top table said no need to share just listen met a guy there who said there was another meeting on that week and he said he pick me up and we became friends John passed away now over 20 years next year god willing is my 40th year in AA so it works wish you well
Cheers Ray, there is another meeting on a friday thats 10 miles away in another town, i live in the sticks so its not so easy to get about but im happy to wait. Congratulations on you lengthy sobriety its inspiring sir.
I agree 
meetings are going to be great for you my friend