Hi. It can feel like you are missing out of something when everyone around you is drinking. It helps me to remember it is just a category of liquids that I cannot drink. I can still have many delicious beverages, that don’t come with the risk of me detonating my life.
Like you, I was barely survivng when I was drinking. Even when I wasn’t drinking or hungover, I was thinking about, planning, debating, negotiating, fearing, waiting for alcohol. It was always hanging over me. I am so glad to be free of it.
Like Butterflymoonwoman said, have a list of your reasons. I bookmarked how I felt after a replapse, and I refered to it often.
Try not to focus on what you can’t do, but focus on the things you will gain: time, energy, clarity, freedom.