@Hopeful777 glad to see u back!
Day 1
Again, another “not too bad” relapse. But less time inbetween, and I know it is a ticking time bomb.
Why “not too bad” is still bad enough
Your body does not like alcohol. U do not get a “nice buzz”, u go straight from feeling nothing, to unable to function.
What if someone comes to the house when u are drunk, like other mums or the in-laws,
how embarrassing. U live in Japan, what if there is an earthquake, ffs?
U throw up terribly. U can’t even hold down water.
For days after u feel down, anxious, and u binge eat.
Ur son gets anxious and unstable. My kids should not have to worry about me.
U lose any leg to stand on with ur husband. He will take ur purse again so u can’t meet friends.
U can’t do anything productive, like work, running, doing extra with the kids. U are on pure survival mode for a few days after. U are not living, just existing.