After having my ex partners mother contact me to tell me my stuffs being brought to mine… Turn up drop it off, mental nurse arrives and I’m in a state…
I can feel myself reach for the fucking bottle, I’m not worth shit… I’ve done the damage I should let the stuff derail me now…
I gave it my all and this disease takes you to lows and dark points I just cant see past
Oh man; you know drinking is definitely not going to make you feel better, hun. Don’t let it get in your head that it will… You are so worth it; I love seeing your posts and you help others when you can.
Hang in there; it’s shit like this that will make you stronger. 
Nope I 100% disagree, you are worth it! Because if your not then neither am I…
It does get better with time, just hang in there, minute by minute if that’s all you can manage 
Keep fighting the urge and do not give in to temptation. It will only lead you down that dark path and we all know where that leads to.
Accept what’s done and move forward. Do not keep on looking back on the past .It can’t be undone and it won’t shape your future unless you let it.
Focus on you getting better
I am with you all the way let’s do this
You have to let this go and fight the urge. There’s going to be many more situations and if you don’t learn now, you’re going to wind up back into deep addiction. Drinking is not going to make anything better. Our addict minds can find any excuse to pick up.
Danni; go read what @Yoda-Stevie wrote on his post, “1000 days of getting better at getting better”… I think it will help you today… Please hang in there!
This makes me sad, because I know you can be free, if you choose to be free. Drinking won’t change anything for you, except make things worse. The only path out of your current state is sobriety. It is the hard path, but it leads to life. The easy path, the one where you reach for the bottle…it only leads to ruin.
Okay… I’m reading…
Minute by minute day
Thank you to you all…
The addict brain lies to us about our self worth to trick us into picking up… Do not listen to it, tell it to shut the F up. It gets easier i promise. You deserve sobriety, you are worthy of a good life so hang in there!
All these issues you have will still be there in the morning plus you ou don’t need a hangover on top plus the depression and anxiety that comes with it. it’s not worth it.
thank you for reaching out to this community of beautiful souls, instead of reaching for the bottle. Rejoice in the fact that you did this, rather than surrendering in silence. You have more fight in you than you know.
“I can feel myself reach for the fucking bottle, I’m not worth shit… I’ve done the damage I should let the stuff derail me now…”
You ARE worth it and the small part of you that remembers this is the part that reached out for help by posting on here. That’s the little bad ass bitch in you that still has fight left in her. She’s trying hard to kick the shit out of the part of you thats doubting yourself. Listen to her and don’t give in, because hitting the bottle won’t change the situation except to make it worse because you’ll wake up tomorrow with regret, shame, guilt, and one helluva hangover. No Bueno.
Do something to distract yourself. Punch a pillow, scream, cook, listen to music, dance, ANYTHING but drink to help you through this weak moment and I guarantee you that this time tomorrow you’ll feel 100% better about yourself for not giving in!
Danni you are a good person. You matter. You are worth so much, to yourself and to all of us. We love you and you should be safe and healthy.
I can hear your anguish and pain and fear. It sounds like you feel alone and hopeless. It sounds like you feel desperately lost.
Talk to us Danni. Tell us what you’re feeling.
You’re a good person and you deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self.
Let today be the day you “Get Up.”
Get up, look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself for the strength to persevere. You might be suprised by the willpower that lies within you.
Rise above your negative thoughts, ask yourself what drinking stands to help you accomplish? If alcohol isn’t going to help, consider what will… and try that instead.
The community is here for you, talk to us
All of you have such powerful and meaningful words, that are hitting home, absolutely right in so many ways…
I just feel weak and that anything at this moment is better than the the raw emotions of the utter disgrace I am.
THIS is you Danni; that feeling of worthlessness is not you; it does happen to everyone at some point. You are a wonderful lady; don’t forget it!
Nope, you’re not a disgrace. You’re scared and intimidated by your whirlwind of emotion. Anyone in your situation would be. That makes you human, and that makes you learning (which is sometimes scary). That’s the farthest thing from a disgrace.
I saw your previous post and I understand more now:
That is rough. You’re tired and exasperated. And there’s the other shit you mentioned in this thread too. Anyone would be drained and discouraged. But this is also your moment where you learn how to deal with this shit sober. Millions of people do every day, and they’re no better than you. You can do this.
You reached out for support from friends (here on TS). That’s a good strategy. Try some other things using HALT:
Hungry (are you hungry? Get food. You need food.)
Angry (of course you’re angry. Anyone would be. Anger is a sign that something needs to change. Maybe start looking for a new place to live)
Lonely (no one likes being alone. Reach out. Come here on TS. Find an AA meeting. Connect. It will keep you grounded)
Tired (sleep. You’re exhausted. You need rest)
Take care love, and never forget: you’re a good person, you matter, your sobriety matters, and you deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self. 
Your right…
I am thankful I’m here still…
Losing everything is hard.
Thank you…
It’s been just too emotional and I suppose thats where I’ve leaned on substances and drink so much to power through,
so these emotions are hard and have me all over the place.