Hi Jack, welcome to Talking Sober 
Sounds like it’s been rough for you recently. Addiction steals everything from us. As an alcoholic, eventually, everything disappears - trust, relationships, jobs - and all you have left is the alcohol.
No, you’re not.
You have a lot to learn about yourself and about other people before you will have something to offer in a mutually beneficial dating relationship with another human being. You are an alcoholic who woke up today with a pounding hangover. You can’t even take care of yourself - you haven’t learned how to live without alcohol - how are you going to take care of a relationship with someone else? Your relationship with alcohol will always come first, until you learn to be sober. You aren’t ready to date.
It is possible to be sober, but you need to start by working on yourself. There are groups you can join, books you can read, programs you can work:
It will take time, always one day at a time.