Welcome. When you are spiraling down it is so very hard to grab onto something and start the cycle going the opposite way. Coming on here is a great first step.
That What’s YOUR plan?
thread truly is great. You can get on an online meeting for AA right now on Meeting Directory – Online Intergroup of Alcoholics Anonymous Meeting Directory – Online Intergroup of Alcoholics Anonymous
and there are other resources you can find on
Resources for our recovery
Just keep doing the next right thing, and you can improve your life. 
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