I have been really good for the past two weeks remaining sober, but my partner and baby boy have gone away for a few days to visit family and I am having intense thoughts and battles in my mind…. “No one will know” “You are not hurting anyone”, “You can’t hurt them if they aren’t here to see” etc… I’ll find myself a distraction and quick. Just knew checking in here would help and keep me accountable…. ahh it’s a tough journey!! Cheers peeps 
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Hang in there! I hope you make it through the night sober! 
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I understand 100%. I was such a secret drinker. And when I convinced myself “nobody will know” two things happened. First, I knew. That started the guilt, shame, obsessing, negative thoughts. Your basic addiction bullshit. Second, my boyfriend or years ago husband knew by the sound of my voice on the phone. I was kidding no one. So, I think it is in some ways easier to just NOT DRINK. Fight through it another day. This place is my lifeline.
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I made it 
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I’m struggling a lot this evening with a cold bottle of wine in the fridge courtesy of my mother, who doesn’t know, so I’m trying to avoid the kitchen and fight the craving for it.
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That’s tough. I found it really helped when I started letting others know of my problem. They were really understanding and supportive.
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Great job Tex. I needed to read this. Near day 10 myself and really considered drinking tonight. I’m fighting off the urge now. Good for you, thanks for sharing. Keep it up
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Don’t do it!! It’s a lie and nothing will be different!
Re read this from only a few days ago. It’s a test and you’re gonna be stronger than the urge. 
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Same spot as you, kind of… day 9 for me and I’m tempted due to my Dad ditching beer into my fridge. Here’s the story, he’s in his late 60s and a long long time drinker. Safe to say I got this “gift” of addiction from him. Well last weekend he brought a cooler over and threw 13 beers in my fridge, which I would usually welcome but I told him I was 6 days clean at the time. I asked why and he told me the night before he raked the side of his truck across a concrete barrier in a construction zone. Beat the shit out his whole passenger side so he says he’s retired from drinking. Good call Dad, about time, and thanks for another gift I have to figure out how to get rid of. Can’t make this stuff up. Maybe I’ll give em to my son (
terrible joke)
Anyway, stay strong I’m with you
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Pour em out!!
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Maybe you can regift that wine to a neighbor tonight. I am on eve of two weeks sober and I cannot have any alcohol in my house to stay strong. Good luck and know life is so much better without chains of addiction.
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