Just curious as to what people think of the two.
Me personally…i wasn’t ready to quit.
I’m going on 90 days soon and in all honesty in not really happy 100% of the time about not drinking anymore.
Mostly because it wasn’t something i wanted to do, but something i had to do because i was told i had to “or else”.
Granted my choice to stop was mine alone because drinking isn’t worth the “or else” but I’m not happy with having to make that decision and i worry that i might act out on that eventually in spite of being told not to do so.
We’re supposed to stop because it’s something we want to do for ourselves, if i quit because of someone or something else did i do it for the right reasons and how strong is my foundation in sobriety?
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I really don’t think any of us are happy 100% about this decision, maybe after a longer time we might be, hopefully.
In the beginning 2 weeks ago I quit for my wife mainly because I hated how I would act drinking whisky & new eventually I would f… up & loose everything. Ideally my wife ,who is a bartender doesn’t want me to quit. She only wants me to quit whisky. Well I’ve proven too many times that ain’t going to happen (definitely powerless ) so I’m just doing one day at a time for me & not sure where that will lead.
Good luck man!
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I’m not 100% happy about it either.but I decided it myself.
Other people thought I needed to limit myself, but it doesn’t work that way.
Your foundation is strong because YOU made the choice, you could have drank anyway of you wanted to do it out of spite but you haven’t because deep down you want to stop for yourself.Sometimes I’ll be sitting there and the waitress will ask me if I want anything to drink besides water…I wanna throw my drink at her…I mean not her specifically but anyone who asks me that.
I totally get feeling like someone is telling you what to do and hating it.Thats a pet peeve of mine for sure.However people are going to annoy you and pissed you off and make you feel like you wanna stick it to them, being sober gives you more control, and damn that feels so much better than lashing out over everything at everyone because I’m drunk.
Keep at it, for yourself.
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An inspiration?
Thanks but I’m struggling just like everyone else 
If anything your the inspiration @Oliverjava
You seem to have more drive and want to do this then i.
I was just curious as to what others thought on the subject…i know part of me enjoys being sober and the Benifits it brings but then there’s the alcohlic in me that’s stubborn and resentful towards it all.
Still going up and down on the emotional roller coaster but even still…I’m still sober!
Thanks for the input
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Yes,can’t wait for the snow…
No,I’m not climbing any mountains,i want to live…not die in some trail cuz i can’t breathe!
Lol I’m at 7550 feet alt.
The mountains here are upwards of 13000 feet!
As far as writing i haven’t been able to do that in years, most of my writings come from dark places i chose not to visit anymore,never was one to write about happy things…be like reading a edgar allen poe birthday card!
I’ve basically confined myself to my house for my own safety…i don’t trust myself to go out and about…I’m friendless because everyone i know drinks and i can’t be around it…at all.
I’ll keep fighting the good fight i just go through these emotional whiplashes that I’m not used to dealing with clear headed.
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I feel the same way about the friends, but I’m making new ones & I won’t give up the old, I’ll just see them less frequently. I’m from WI flat lander & on a whim with about 6 weeks of half ass training /hiking my son & I did Cloud Peak in Wyoming 13,167’ it’s Awesome the best high u could ask for.
Go for it…
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