Hello dear sober time users, I’m a 29 years old french IT guy and living in Marseille. I got this app because I want to quit smoking weed.
I fell in love with weed about 9 years ago, and I’ve become a chronic smoker since. I’ve used several other drugs like mdma, cocaine, speed, alcohol, but I was able to stop or restrict my usage for those. I completely stopped mdma, speed and cocaine, and I allow myself to drink a beer from time to time.
I should comment on those drugs if any user can relate. I discovered mdma and cocaine when introduced to the rave scene, I took mdma every week-end at the beginning, and slowly dropped my consumption over a 3 year period. At the end it made me feel chemically unbalanced and depressed, I couldn’t feel happy when good things came to me (which is a scary thing to consider). So I stopped. I continued using cocaine and speed in small amounts, but it was never a regular thing, and even though I never took the conscious decision to stop, it happens I don’t use anymore.
Since I stopped those drugs, cannabis was the one and only substance I allowed myself to take, without any restriction.
Of all the substances, weed is now the one I have a problem with. Weed is the one I have to have at home. From the time I get back from work to the time I go to bed, I have to smoke joints (around 5 to 6). On the week-end I smoke non-stop. Every week I buy 100€ of the strongest weed and I’d rather smoke alone at home than doing anything else.
I never pick up the phone when I’m high, I just want the world to forget about me. My isolation has never been stronger, which depresses me, and makes me wanna smoke even more.
Thursday, I emptied my last bag of weed, and promised myself not to buy again.
My fears :
Most of my friends are weed smokers
Finding weed in Marseille is the easiest thing ever
I’v coupled my weed consumption with activities such as video games and music production, and I’m afraid I won’t enjoy them as much after quitting weed.
My motivations :
I can’t remember what a clear mind really is
Don’t want to end up alone
My plan :
Get my shit in order
Run (Getting hooked on Endorphins would be perfect)
I wish my testimony is readable and useful for some people. Take care.