So i messed up, i was struggling with the day to day grind and emptiness i was feeling. 5 months sobriety lost, i didnt even reset my timer, i straight up deleted the whole thing and starting again. There was a long road in front of me before and now it feels even longer. I have a Therapist, i have medical advice and meds, i am trying to fix my trauma with specialist treatment, i even called helplines and friends when i was at my lowest and panicking. What more can i do. Just guess i will keep plugging away each day and one day maybe i will feel better. I am tired of my own self pity, tired of talking about it, tired of the sympathetic looks or the simple not understanding of what im going through. I will log in here i will do my best, thats about all i can do right now. Much love to all you heroes out there that are living each day
Well done on your first 24 hours. I too have recently reset again. All we can do is one day at a time, and keep coming back to this site for support. We can do this! 
Change that sad face to a 
. Or at least a determined one. We are all just getting 24 hours odaat.
Welcome back! Relapae happens, but it doesn’t have too.
What helped me most…living on the forum. Being active, posting about what i was going through.
Hey Jambo, welcome back my friend. I can hear your pain. I’ve been very depressed and low and hopeless for a long time in the past. I know how it feels. I am sure many here can relate just as well as me. 
you are right, you gotta keep doing the work, with your therapist, reaching out to friends and support, here for example, there’s so much support to be had here.
one more thing I can advise you is to try and find gratitude for some things, no matter how small. and if it is how good this cup of coffee tastes or that you find the kindness in your own heart to love yourself despite everything just this minute. or that you’re still here, still fighting for that better life you know is out there for you. or that your houseplant is also hanging in there, whatever.
here are some more grateful ppl to hang out with and be inspired by:
Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #2
you’re not alone my friend. don’t give up. no matter how bad it is now, it does get better, take it from me.
I’m glad you’re restarting with new focus. However, I highly recommend resetting your timer and not deleting. I understand the desire to have it all wiped away. I deleted twice in the past because I found the relapsing a bit shameful. I didn’t want the constant reminder. But hindsight is 20:20 and now I wish I had the stats.
YOU CAN DO IT!!
Thank you everyone for your kind words and your thoughts. Day 2 now complete 
@Jambo I can feel the pain and disappointment in your words. That must be feeling really hard to cope with. You have had a relapse but you chose to return to sobriety. You have been proactive enough to get all the strategies in place to ensure you are supported during this time. You come back from relapse more prepared and committed to remain sober. You may feel really low right now but that will get better with time. You have a community of people who know exactly how you feel and have been where you are right now. People who will support and encourage you every step of the way and be strong for you until you are able to be strong. I am proud of you for making it through Day 2. A day at a time will get you to what you want to be and that is FREE. Keep going my friend.
Take it easy on yourself! And one day at a time even one minute at a time also works… take care!